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• Chapter 19: Life as an Adult

  October 24, 2019

  What does it mean, feel like myself again? Is that something we should actually strive for? I feel nothing like I used to. I look slightly older, perhaps 10 pounds heavier. I have a 4.5 year old daughter. I am engaged to the most brilliant tornado of a woman there is. I am not bored.…

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• An ode to music

  October 24, 2019

  I think this is the first time I have actually said it out aloud or written it down. I have a hard time dancing. I knew it was the heartbreak that started it, but something happened when Cort and I started dating. I was so numb. I had a hard time feeling anything. I felt…

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• No risk, no fun.

  September 14, 2013

   Haha, All my life I have always chosen risk. But it is the greatest battle ever.. not risking anything for her sake. She found someone who knows who he is . Someone with a child. Someone with stability. Someone with longer History we don't have. Someone who is already family.Someone.. who m...

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• What is love? baby don’t hurt me…

  September 7, 2013

   Haddaway, said don't hurt me no more. Love is the greatest feeling, realization, epiphany, dream but most of all reality I could ever encounter. What I seldom try to recognize is that it is also the only feeling that is so great once on it... that everything else literally compares to shit....

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• and so….

  September 4, 2013

   Haha, All my life I have always chosen risk. But it is the greatest battle ever.. not risking anything for her sake. She found someone who knows who he is . Someone with a child. Someone with stability. Someone with longer History we don't have. Someone who is already family.Someone.. who m...

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• Dreams

  August 20, 2013

  I rub the sand out of my eyes and rush to sit up to take a look around the room. Everything seems like I left it yesterday only thing missing is her. She is not lying beside me. I jump out of bed, rush into the office and there it hits me. Everything is gone,…

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• Vegvisir

  March 28, 2013

  random day to write but things need to get out...   I haven't had a weekend since November 27th 2012 which is kind of crazy going from doing no school to school and job to more school and two new completely different jobs but I could not complain. I haven't drank alcohol since October 12th&h...

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• confusing what is real

  December 14, 2012

   Before you read, know I don't ever post anything towards social media about politics, because only a few will agree,  my life style or the fact that I am a homosexual, some of you are ok with it, some are ok with the fact that I am and some just disagree and other don’t understan...

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• It doesn’t matter how good life is… sometimes,

  November 21, 2012

  Another head hangs lowly, Child is slowly taken. And the violence caused such silence, Who are we mistaken? But you see, it's not me, it's not my family. In your head, in your head they are fighting, With their tanks and their bombs, And their bombs and their guns. In your head, in your head,&hel...

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