Hello! My name is Amber. I’ve had this OD for a LONG time! Ha ha. Started this in 2004 ... and still going!

I’m a mom of 4, I homeschool, I love Jesus, and I am married.

My Open Diary mirrors my teenage self to my current self. The obvious difference is that I’ve changed A LOT compared to some “entries” you may find, lol. If you are a stalker, you will notice, LOL!

Much Love and God Bless!

Latest Entry

Desperate

August 5, 2020
So I am currently seeking out other avenues for employment to get money right away.... ...and due to the fact that I live in a conservative and religious home... it would be considered “immoral”.... ...but my husband lost his job right away and I have no other choice.  It’s either this or being h...
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Recent Entries

  • Drowning
    August 5, 2020
    I’m being swallowed by the ocean’s tide. My feelings and emotions I can not confide. I swim back up, just to sink 10 ft. deeper. Now just anticipating the Grim Reaper. In this ocean, I am so far deep. I can’t breathe. I can’t speak. And I fear that I may never sleep. I can’t scream for…
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  • Long Time, No Post…
    July 31, 2020
    Hello, OD! It’s been a little bit since I wrote a post.  I didn’t really feel like writing anything lately.  But I can tell you, it’s been stressful. Don’t know if I can really talk about everything... other than my husband lost his job.  It’s not the first time that’s happened. Like I said...don...
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  • My Thought of the Day…
    July 22, 2020
    I am glad you are someone’s dream come true........    
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  • #TOTW80
    July 12, 2020
    “What’s something you’ve moved on from that once meant the world to you?” One of my best friends. Don’t know if he loved me as much as I loved him. I would have done anything for that person. I threw a kid in the ditch, when we were in middle school, when this kid called…
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  • It’s Just Not The Same
    July 1, 2020
    I have entered a place of no return, so it seems. My marriage to my husband is not the same. ___________ Side Note: I am still trying to take care of my mental health, even though I had to cancel my counseling sessions because I couldn’t afford it at this time 😔.  Instead, I’ve been…
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  • #TOTW79
    June 27, 2020
    “Who do you care about most in the world, and what could you do today to make sure they know?” My kids, for one (and #1).  They are at the top of my list of persons I care most about.  I would do anything for them!  They make me laugh, they make me cry, and…
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  • The Truth About My Adult Self
    June 20, 2020
    I saw someone’s entry, here on OD, about looking back on old diary entries and discovering that they were in the same mess now as they were back then... ...and honestly, I feel the same way. Except now, I am in my 30’s with 4 kids and married.  I still suffer from depression, I still…
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  • #TOTW78
    June 13, 2020
    “What qualities make a person attractive to you?”   I know that I am married and everything (btw, long time no see lol...sorry it’s been a while since my last post). But, I thought it would be fun to make a list of all the qualities I find attractive in a person.  So, here we…
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  • What A Wonderful Anniversary…
    May 19, 2020
    It’s my anniversary today...and my husband called me a “piece a sh** liberal”, right before he shooed (don’t think I spelled that right) me away telling me to “go smoke pot or something.” So right after I sent the kids today and ordered my husband and I a couple of shakes as a wedding anniversary...
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