Hello! My name is Amber. I’ve had this OD for a LONG time! Ha ha. Started this in 2004 ... and still going!

I’m a mom of 4, I homeschool, I love Jesus, and I am married.

My Open Diary mirrors my teenage self to my current self. The obvious difference is that I’ve changed A LOT compared to some “entries” you may find, lol. If you are a stalker, you will notice, LOL!

Much Love and God Bless!

Latest Entry

Late Night Thoughts…

October 14, 2021
Sometimes, I want to text you to see how you're doing.  I miss just calling you or texting you. Do you remember how we use to “AIM” each other? I miss those times.  I miss your voice talking to me. Do you want to hear something else? You were the one who introduced me to…
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Recent Entries

  • How My Children Save My Life, Daily.
    October 5, 2021
    Every time I write in this diary, it's always something dramatic, something depressing, or I'm sharing the deepest parts of my heart that would be inappropriate to share publicly. However, even in my most depressing and sad moments...I look at my kids and realize how deep my love is for them and ...
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  • Miss you
    September 28, 2021
    I miss our conversations... Hearing your voice over the phone or in person... Feeling your hand touch mine... Seeing your smile...   I miss the feeling I had talking to you... The feeling of peace... The feeling that I could tell you everything... I felt like you were the person who understo...
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  • Maybe Something Is Wrong With Me
    September 24, 2021
    Today was not a good day.  I've been crying all day. It started out ok until one situation that happened. Well, I came across a video of a girl who was wearing tight jeans (and was seeking attention) was walking around with a phone in her pocket while others were staring at her backside. Obviousl...
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  • Trying: Just My Deep Thoughts For Today
    September 20, 2021
    I’m trying to be more social and reach out to people.  Some days it’s really hard. For over 12 years, I have pushed people away for various reasons.  One reason is that I have a hard time trusting people…but I’m getting better.  Another reason is I’m afraid to get close to people just to lose&hel...
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  • Panic..
    September 6, 2021
    Worked a double today. Had a panic attack at work... Great...
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  • Hopeless
    September 4, 2021
    Sometimes I think things are getting better... Then something happens to tell me it's not... I have no one to go to... I’m lost.
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  • Little Girl Loved Dresses: by Amber
    July 16, 2021
    There once was a little girl who loved to wear a dress. She loved them more than normal, I confess. When she wore a dress, she felt like a feminine-super hero! She felt like she could conquer the world; even defeat an enemy like Nero! To her, a dress was like wearing Superman’s cape. She…
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  • Once…
    June 21, 2021
    Once, I told myself how I wanted you to be mine. A year later, we were together and it was bliss. But then you were gone due to complications with my family.   I moved away, and we kept in touch. Once, I said, “I still want him to be mine...we can make it work,…
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  • Hope Lost
    June 21, 2021
    I wait, daily, for a sign - A sign that, one day, you will be mine. I desire and crave to feel your touch; It’s a hope that I can’t think on too much.   I long to feel the tenderness of your lips And to feel your hands rest on my hips. You told…
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