I am who I am. I write to express the troubles I can't always vocalize. I have had troubling relationships that I have learned from. I have found spiritual connections with others that have changed my life. I am a recovering heroin user with 5 years clean, and I dedicated a lot of that time to helping others find their pathway to recovery. I was once trafficked through the rehab system and endured a lot of distrust with those who were claiming to help me as a young adult. I am also in the medical field. Trust me, I FAILED alot before I found any peace in my life through external validation and inflated successes. Everyday I learn, I evolve and I pass that on. Thank you for finding my journal and feel free to add me. Remember, you are not your experiences, but they are apart of what made you, you.
May 1, 2023Opening your heart isn't just a metaphor. It is letting someone know you in their rarest form, sometimes that form can be cruel before you reach the light underneath. I don't believe too many people have smothered all of their light, nonetheless never had it. I remember allowing my self to feel ...Continue Reading...
The Unknowing Fate
October 18, 2022We often question if life is some fixed thing, and who knows if it is. I have often wondered if we are predestined within a contract to intermingle our souls with specific humans. Quotes: "Theres pain that uses you and pain that you use. " Ozark season 4 "Anger is a potent spice, a pinch…Continue Reading...
October 9, 2022I am so excited to do this I never expected to be in a documentary about my life. I knew I had a story but this is huge. Never expected an actress from Hollywood to reach out. This is just a dream come true but the reality is hitting me. So far we have people…Continue Reading...
I like me
October 8, 2022Doesn't it ever get old I hate knowing what I'm getting into. If this gets ruined for me I will leave everyone behind and Starr over anyways just to get out of here. Done with secrets. I don't want to live for money I want to live to help people and become a better person…Continue Reading...
October 2, 2022I met a woman named Cara who reached out to me about doing a movie on my experience in Florida. I've been highlighting this on tick tok alot. She had found my article. I'm super excited about this, but extremely nervous. I believe she will make it happen. I also go to an interview…Continue Reading...
January 18, 2022Do you ever just feel like your stuck loving someone who is hiding behind pretending to love you. Why don't I deserve to be loved correctly? I'm sorry to everyone i tell not to let their heart win faulty battles just to continue doing it to myself. Lessons I did learn in the last few…Continue Reading...
Day of Birth
January 11, 2022I know pretty much everything I write has to do with Tyler so I am going to try to incorporate other things. Today I got my rental, it's a nissan rogue and I wish I could get it, but I know I don't need it right now and I'll be happy with whatever I get.…Continue Reading...
Grateful for Universal guidance
January 9, 2022I am hopeful for a beautiful future, and open horizens that allow me to fluidity and love. I am open to the universe and it's source to guide the needs through me and back. I will allow myself to be gracious for the warmth of my sheets and the ability of life amongst my weakest…Continue Reading...
What to do when falling off the edge.
October 29, 2021I just need to empty out all the bullshit in my head. I’m going through some pretty severe depression and its partially because my partner, whom is in recovery lied about smoking weed, probably doing other things, where he’s been and why hes had to miss house meetings. Everytime this has ever occ...Continue Reading...
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