I am who I am. I write to express the troubles I can't always vocalize. I have had troubling relationships that I have learned from. I have found spiritual connections with others that have changed my life. I am a recovering heroin user with 5 years clean, and I dedicated a lot of that time to helping others find their pathway to recovery. I was once trafficked through the rehab system and endured a lot of distrust with those who were claiming to help me as a young adult. I am also in the medical field. Trust me, I FAILED alot before I found any peace in my life through external validation and inflated successes. Everyday I learn, I evolve and I pass that on. Thank you for finding my journal and feel free to add me. Remember, you are not your experiences, but they are apart of what made you, you.

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The Upturn

August 18, 2023
So, I finally started filming the docuseries about my experience with that LA actress I met last year, last week. It was by far the best experience of my life. I flew to florida (scared out of my mind of flying) and filmed for two days. This is just the sizzle deck so the real…
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  • Time
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    Day of Birth
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  • Grateful for Universal guidance
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