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February 21, 2022
One thing I’ve read in The Upward Spiral about breaking the cycle of depression is to find things to get excited about. This is one of the single most powerful things I’ve discovered on my journey with all this bullshit. I feel like I’m waking up. Right now, I get excited about the littlest thing...
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