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September 22, 2013
Stefan would have been 34 today if he were alive. I keep thinking about all those times I said that I wasn't getting him anything for his birthday because he couldn't be bothered to even send me a card or call me on mine.  And now I'd take it all back just to have him alive so…
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    Some time ago, one of my faves suffered the loss of her little cousin(i think).  During this time, she had a picture of her cousin's name hand written on a beach taken through Christian's Beach.  For miscarriages and babies, they do it for free.  But they have another site.  T...
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    I'm going to go ahead and skip to the official visitation, but not in great detail. First of all ... they were late.  Because my mom had to get all primped up and waited until the last second to start getting ready. There were -so- many people there.  People that Stefan worked with.&nbs...
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    July 5, 2013
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    July 1, 2013
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