Recent Entries

• Constantly just feel like a bad mom.

  April 16, 2025

  Tonight, Mitchell is on a business trip for 2 days and I am solo parenting the kids. Tonight, also conveniently - they were the worst behaved they have literally ever been. And, I feel like the worst mom ever.  I was so short with them, I even cried a couple of times.  I had to…

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• So much has changed.

  February 8, 2025

  I find myself only writing on here every 6 or so months.  I am hoping to make that more frequent; I think I could really use it these days. I was reading back to some of my last entries about how much I hated my job as a director - and guess what?  I quit!…

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• Parenting

  October 26, 2024

  I’m losing my damn mind. Parenting my 4 and 2 year old is one of the most hardest fucking things.  It’s 12:30 pm and I’ve only dealt with pissed off ness from either of them all day.  Tantrums, kicking, hitting, screaming. To boot, my mother in law is here and I can’t be around her.…

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• Lost.

  May 25, 2024

  I would say the last 6 months... maybe year... maybe longer, I've been a bit lost. I'm a mom of 2.  My oldest Tarin just turned 4 this month.  My youngest, Kesley, turned 2 in April.  I would say I'm on the more mature side of being a mom, having had my first at 32…

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• Been too long.

  February 6, 2024

  I've contemplated jumping on here to write from time to time, but unfortunately, writing seems a lot less therapeutic these days.  Maybe because I spend all day behind a computer typing - and it's lost its luster.  Regardless, I am going to try tonight because I have a lot on my mind. Let's start...

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• Exhausted. Mom Things.

  October 16, 2022

  I hate those times when you just - don't know where to start.  This is one of those times. I'm just overall super overwhelmed.  Can't get in a routine.  Trying to be a good mom.  No time for myself.  Husband is driving me crazy.  Everything. I guess let's start with a little life update.  We…

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• Marriage. Fighting.

  July 31, 2022

  My husband and I are fighting so much right now.  It just completely escalated after Kesley was born. Things are stressful, we’re moving, not getting much sleep, work is crazy. But we’re in really rough shape. I’m so sad. Much love, -Elle

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• July 20th Update

  July 20, 2022

  My brain right now is like a mess of toddlers trying to navigate a jungle gym - LOL.  So need to get a lot of feelings out! Health - After FINALLY kicking my post partum issues to the side - I get mastitis.  WTF.  So annoyed.  Good news, I caught it super early (Saturday), went…

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• Parenthood = 1; Elle = 0

  July 16, 2022

  I went back to work after my first round of maternity last week - and I'm not going to lie, I am getting my ass absolutely kicked. First of all, when it comes to weekends... which if any of you are parents, know those are tough anyway.  Lots of entertaining, constant whining, esp. since I…

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