Bipolarism - a Mindfuckery

"I don't ever try to deliberately hurt you" You texted those exact words to me. Let play devil's advocate for a minute and I'll respond with: "Then why for 1.5 years did you look me in the eyes on multiple occasions and say that you were all in, you were trying, you loved me, and…

Within 24 hours of your affair being exposed you "promised" me that you were 100% in it, that you were going to try and give 100% to our relationship. It was you that wanted to fix the relationship and stay together. It was you that wanted to stay together, forgive and "forget". It was you…

One minute I love you. One minute I hate you. Is that what twenty years does or is that what narcissistic love does. Since the first day that your affair was exposed you have acted like it is water under the bridge, like cats out of the bag so we can move on. I can't…

I find myself asking the question "Why" so often now.  Whether it is aloud, amidst silent sobs, or silently like a broken record controlling my thoughts.... That and "what the fuck" So many times I find myself coming here to type a few words, hit delete, type a few more, delete again - to walk&he...