Chapter 3 : The Dick Mistake

  So... He rang today, with how much he loves me... and blah blah blah. He says he's changed.   I told him to fuck off and die.      

  He's a cunt, that’s why he does everything he does. Simples. I've been signed off work sick due to stress and anxiety. Fuck this life.            

  So.... I've realised why I cry at the things I do... like Glee, like when the family members are reunited on Biggest Loser, at happy moments that I see and now I know, it struck me like a lightning bolt to the heart. I cry because these are the things I always wanted but never had at schoo...

So... WE'RE ENGAAAAAAAAAAAAAGED!!!          

  So... Here we are, it's our anniversary, the 17th, which means tomorrow is the 18th, which means I’M GOING TO ARIZONA!! SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! *ahem* Actually I'm heading off to the airport at on the 19:43 train... EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!! *ahem*  

  So... I've been thinking, next week begins a new chapter in my life. Next week I'll be with him, while I'm there we’re getting engaged and I'm rather lucky, I found love, not everyone does. His family have taken me in and accepted me as one of their own they treat me with love and respect,...

So... He's hired his friend as his housekeeper; a) he wants to impress me with a clean and tidy apartment. b) she REALLY needed a job. CUTE. AS. FUCK. ALSO... I told him that we're going to be using condoms, he wasn't too keen, as he's only ever used free family planning ones BUT he's agreed to b...

  So... I came in from work and I had Air Mail. Checking the scrawl I knew he'd sent me something. I can tell his writing. It was a Hallmark card. The verse was to do with how much he cares and that wherever I am he'll be with me in one way or another and then all of a sudden…

  So... my skin is breaking out... I guess that's what you happen when you buy Cover Girl foundation for a pound... Oi Vey... I must get some decent foundation again... There's no point now as in three weeks I'll be tanned and ergo new foundation will be wasted... TuT. He wanted me to wear&h...

  So... If TPO had been pregnant the baby would have been due last Monday. It would have been here by now. Now I get that she was never pregnant but I feel that I've lost something. It was all so fucked up.   For the first 3 months there was no reason to doubt her and naturally I grew&h...