Long Day Mostly Boring Work

Okay so it wasn’t all boring today. I stayed home at Mom’s until dinner tho, which is what made it boring. She has a guy installing a new window in the kitchen so he was busy and our dogs were barking at him. Well, MY dogs were barking at him. And they stressed me out.

I have gotten that job making a short with a big deal government film agency here, which is exciting. It’s not for sure for sure, but the producer is going to send me a schedule of how it will go and will confirm with me tomorrow. So I hope it works out, I’m really excited. People are approaching me for work and stuff and it’s nice. This opportunity almost slipped through my fingers because of scheduling issues. But they are making an exception for me which is nice.

I found out I got a bunch of money to make this other video I want to do, so that’s nice. It makes me worry less about my immediate financial future. I did some math and when all the money comes in that I am supposed to get plus what I have now I should have just over 24,000. Which is like, omg, such a relief. I mean most of it has to go to making work. But also some of it I can just live on which is nice.

I finished writing a grant to make another video next year, but more like an installation. I dunno, we’ll see what happens! I hope it works out. It would be a lot of money. But also would be nice to help me move on to making some kind of video art that I could potentially sell to a gallery or something, which would really help me out career wise.

So yeah career stuff was going well for me today. And I worked really hard today, which was hard with the dogs constantly barking.

I’m starting to realize I am not necessarily a person who is poor anymore. Like I am getting a lot of work, mostly on my own terms, and it’s really wonderful to realize I can make a living and potentially support a family with the things I love doing. Not a lot of people get to do that. It’s a relief.

I did some knitting on my dog’s sweater today. I had done the ribbing for the neck and some increases for the chest and then I had to do wrap and turns to do short rows for her chest and I was so intimidated and Mom was just like “Look it up on the internet!” and I found a youtube video that showed me how to do it and now I am feeling more confident that this is a thing I can do, knit my dog a sweater. I have basically only knitted squares or long rectangles before. Scarves and dishtowels and one hat that was sewn together. So I am excited to knit again.

I saw my sister for the first time in ages, she’s intellectually disabled so we don’t get to talk to each other when I am far away from her. But yeah I saw her, she was super cute and happy. Fed her marshmallows and watched The Princess Bride.

We wanted to stop at a couple stores after but they were all closed.

Tomorrow we are going to the Casino! I’m excited, I only ever go play slots when I am back in Hometown. So it will be nice or depressing I guess!

My friend Ricky is here, she moved here. I haven’t seen her yet. I’m gonna miss her when I go back to Toronto and she isn’t there anymore.

People have been inviting me to cute Hometown Christmas things, like a drag show on Friday night at the gay bar, and a Drag Queen Bingo at a pub on the 20th, and some etsy Christmas market, other assorted cute things. I’m glad I won’t just be bored this month. I don’t know what New Years will look like. I don’t drink so it seems really unpleasant to go to a bar, but who knows. Or maybe someone will have a party. OH it’s Ricky’s birthday that day, she’ll probably have something she wants to do. I think we went to bingo last New Years Eve. And then played a game.

I’m anticipating a mild sadness and disappointment this Christmas. One of the confusing things Jessie did last year was on Christmas Day she sent me this text of a dachshund Christmas card, and she was being kind of cute and sending blushing emojis and I actually kind of think she was a little bit drunk and flirty. And she was off at her hometown with her parents and family and partner. And I dunno, it really confused me because it was one of the things that gave me hope that something was happening between us. Anyway I am pretty sure she won’t do that this year. She’s gonna avoid private messages of any kind. And even tho it was pretty much a tease move, I am still gonna be sad when I don’t hear from her on Christmas. I wish this would get out of my system faster.

Anyway omg I am sleepy now I should go.