Today I read something scary – that people who have diabetes amputations – toes, feet, legs – 50% die within 2 years.
My husband is going to have to have at least 1 or 2 toes amputated soon. He has been in severe pain, had surgery to place a stent in his artery and hopefully will have another one in soon to keep blood flowing in his right leg/foot. The doctors are not that encouraging.
But after reading that depressing prognosis, I already view him differently. I know a lot of people deal with this – serious complications and even more serious terminal illness. We both turned 69 this year and I see people our age die frequently, and not just from Covid. I guess it just got more real. Also I slipped on the front step and fell hard on my back yesterday but I am okay – nothing lasting. I have fallen a couple of other times – no injuries. Just scary that it happens. I know accidents happen and people fall – but I don’t usually.
So I am going to have to figure out how to make the best of my situation. I still have 7 months to retirement. I work from home and my employer is generous with time off for family needs. We own our own home in a quiet neighborhood, car and truck in decent condition and have an adult daughter about 5 miles away. I am overweight, but otherwise apparently in good health, just some osteoarthritis and acid re flux both of which I take medication to keep symptoms in check.
Psychologically I am a glass-half-full person but I feel a lot more vulnerable and sad these days. My social network is almost non-existent. I have a couple of coworkers who care about me and have contacted me. My family consists of 5 people – my husband, daughter, sister-in-law and her roommate/partner/friend and myself.
I am not sure what to do – I’ll have to do some research I guess.