Scratch that

How I started this entry:

“Title: Today is a good day

Entry: I don’t want to say “Today is a good day” as if I don’t have good days often. I do. Most of my days are good. But today, I got up with a purpose and a plan.

I started back on my all day laundry t”

That’s where I stopped. Why? Because that is where my boyfriend interrupted me to ask where I was on my laundry. I had one load of regular, everyday clothes, left to wash, but I put them back in the hamper for next week.

See, I have a plan.  Let me explain- I am no housekeeper. In fact, I am quite terrible at keeping a house clean. Our house isn’t “dirty” or gross or anything, you just might find some dog hair dust balls rolling across the floor, there’s usually dirty dishes around, and I have NEVER had all of my laundry washed at once. I am not a housekeeper!

I am, however, a goal setter/plan keeper. I’m not talking “New Year Resolution” here. I am just saying I recognized an area of my life that needs improvement so I intend on doing all I can to improve it.

My plan of action:

Monday-Thursday: 30 minutes a day cleaning (not counting laundry/dishes)

Saturday: 1 hour of cleaning (not counting laundry and dishes)

Friday & Sunday: Rest days

Dishes: Done every night before bed

Laundry: Done every Saturday OR Sunday, 1 work clothes load (that’s all I need, I wear scrubs), and AT LEAST 1 casual clothes load- Must be DONE and PUT AWAY before bed on Sunday night

So. He asks if I am done. I explain that I have 1 load left but I am waiting to do it next Saturday. He says I need to do it now. He says he wants ALL laundry done today and put up. I get it, I mean, yes. I do too. The thing is, if I do ALL of it now, I will burn out. I will start cramming clothes in drawers with no care. Nothing will be folded, nothing will be separated, and when I go to find something, I will just throw everything on the floor and forget it. Leaving it in a pile that will put is RIGHT BACK HERE in less than a month.

If I work at it slowly, methodically, I will put things away properly. Finding outfits will be easy. No more wasted laundry. I may even be able to thin out my wardrobe, which I desperately need to do.

So. I tell him I have a plan to organize my closet and that load will wait for next week. He says I don’t have a plan and I don’t organize anything. So here I sit, feeling let down by myself on something I never even had a chance to implement.

Today was going to be a good day. I was going to get these few laundry chores done, I was going to meet some friends for batting practice, I was going to meal prep, and I wasn’t going to have an anxiety meltdown at 1am worrying about the Monday to come. Who knows now. Who knows. All I can do is getting moving and hope I find my own light again.

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January 6, 2019

I have to clean every day in order to keep my home up… at least one hour not counting laundry, dishes and cooking

January 6, 2019

Your plan sounds perfect to me!  Is there anyway he can help with the laundry and household chores?  I’ve been making an effort to wash my dishes every day so they don’t pile up.

January 7, 2019

@wildrose_2 he does help around the house. I didn’t mean to imply that he doesn’t. He typically does the bare minimum to get through the week. Which is fine. When I barely do anything. he keeps our place afloat.

Because of my lack of commitment to housework, he doesn’t have faith that I’ll ever carry through with getting it all cleaned up. It is going to take time and I’ll have to prove it to him step by step! His negativity just really upset me yesterday.

January 9, 2019

That sounded like a good plan to me 🙂 hope that you were able to go through with it!