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I feel like my head is constantly split between logical and emotional thinking, with the logical usually being the dominant trait.  I can portray either side fluidly with friends. I can be the "Man, that sucks, I'm sorry you are going through that" friend or the "Well, rules are rules. At least y...

I needed to see the name of this without knowing I needed to see it.  I've never seen myself as suicidal. I never attempted suicide. I've never even attempted to plan suicide. But. There are these nagging thoughts. These times where I have this little voice in my head that says "Well, you could j...

How I started this entry: "Title: Today is a good day Entry: I don't want to say "Today is a good day" as if I don't have good days often. I do. Most of my days are good. But today, I got up with a purpose and a plan. I started back on my all day…

When I first moved here, I fought with depression for the first time. I didn't see my previous highs and lows as an issue since they were brushed off as "hormones" by my family.  I didn't understand why I was depressed, so I started seeing a therapist. I went for months. I talked and talked.…