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Emotions

June 1, 2022
Since we got back from our vacation I have been feeling so many emotions at once. I'm happy but sad. I love someone but I hate someone. I absolutely hate how I feel. It actually happens all the time honestly. And some times it's not even like a "flip of the switch". I literally feel…
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