Nihilist’s won’t believe in this entry.

I had a conversation last night with my next door neighbor who is one of those, he thinks that all homosexuals go to hell no matter what, and that they can’t really be Christians, and that they choose to be that way.

I say nay, and it annoys me that I enjoy having conversations where I disagree with someone, I enjoy questioning things too much, and I would be so stupid as to say on here that I do believe that “homosexuality” is a sin. I might be stupid to say that, because I have friends that are gay, and one on here who is, and I don’t want him to think less of me for thinking that way, but I also have friends who are liars.

(It’s not good to have friends who are liars, I just thought.) And adultery is a sin, and murder, and what I have heard, what I think is that God doesn’t see one bigger than the other.

The guy got me though. He said that if that’s true, a true “christian” or someone who gives himself “to Jesus” (I hate that term) should truly change and give up their sins, or try to change. If you keep going on lying and just call yourself a Christian, are you? I mean it’s not for me to say, I know that, but this guy, the next door neighbor, truly believes that if you truly except God, you’ll be straight.

Suddenly, you’re attracted to women.

Praise God.

Huh. It just doesn’t make sense to me, even my take on it. And it seems that if you are to change, if you are to stop loving men, and you’re still not attracted to women, if you were born that way, I mean, can a retard stop attending the special olympics just because he wants it that much? And it just seems like a lot of “Christians” are asking these “homosexuals” to hate themselves, to hate their sex drive, to hate hate hate.

I shouldn’t question so much, I just want to be in His Glory. I know that seems so stupid, (and I talked to my psychologist yesterday and she pulled it out of me that I Am Scared Of Becoming Like “them”) sigh. Please God, let me realize you.