country road take me home

i sat with her father today…

i saw in his eyes the love only a father can have for his daughter…

i saw in him all the loss i have felt for so many years now…

to lose a child is the most devastating thing that can happen to a person…

i knew that he would trade places with her if he could without ever being asked…

they really dont know if she is going to survive…

there is a black cloud over the town today, rain is slowly moving in and it seems melodramatic and appropriate…

it feels like a movie of the week, but i have always looked for he connection between reality and fantasy…

he is so hurt…

i tried to help but this is a path he has to walk on his own…

i can only be there as much as he wants me to be…

before we left he kissed her on the forehead and ran his hand through her hair…

he asked “What am I supposed to do?”…

“The only thing you can do is live and let her know you love her.”

“DO you?” he asked…

i couldnt answer…

all i could do was stand there and look at her face all purple and swollen…

i couldnt answer…

i know what he wants, i know what they all want, i know i should fall into line and walk lockstep with them…

before i left i touched her cheek, it was cold and kinda rubbery…

my soul shook like an earthquake…

there is not enough water in the world to wash away this feeling…

shame on me…