sunday morning coming down
i have to say that despite my efforts… i struggle…
my mother my father my jasper my wife my saber…
its like someone is trying to erase everything that is me from the planet, to make me nonexistent…
i know its the nature of all things to die…
it just seems so terribly convenient that its all going away in the space of 5 years…
my mother in law is in rehab with a broken shoulder… she fell trying to stand up…
my father in law has prostate cancer, hes been given hormones to slow the progression of the disease and now is a shivering shell of what he used to be…
i fear that in a year they will both be dead and all connection i had to this world will be severed…
i WILL be alone in the world…
was that my destiny all along?
Good to see you back. I’m sorry about your relatives.
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I’ve been alone for a LOOOOOONG time. It sucks but I’m used to it. If you should become alone, you will then have you …to love. I’m willing to bet you’ll like yourself. You will.
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I am sorry that you have this going on..I wish I could trade places with you.
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I think at a certain point we all have to become comfortable enough with ourselves to be alone in the world. Making new connection is never a bad thing either, if you want to go that route.
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