Kiss and tell

30 day challenge: day 23 – write a letter to the last person you kissed.

This letter is to my long time best guy friend turned ex love. He was my best male friend in higher school. He always had a thing for me from high school on. We lost touch after I moved and he graduated. He got married and had kids as did I. We reconnected 22yrs later and fell in love. Things didn’t work out though so we never had a real relationship. I still love him! And as much as I love being on my own alone. He is the one exception I’d make and consider a relationship if he ever changed his ways. 

Carl, 

I really miss you! I haven’t reached out in many months because it’s a two way street and you never text or call me. I’ve always been the one to try the hardest to make things work between us but you never made time for me. You tell me you love me and plan to marry me and be with me forever but yet you can’t even find the time to call or even come by and visit. I’m tired of waiting. I can’t continue like that! I miss being in your arms… the few times I got to be. And I miss your kiss! I decided that I am content being on my own now. I don’t need nor want a man in my life. But if you ever realize you messed up and you want to really try again I will be glad to give you another chance but it would have to be slow going. I can’t be hurt by you again. All you have to do is reach out to me and make the effort to see me and spend time with me. I love you regardless of what you decide!

Today I took my mom to get her grocery shopping done. I usually have to lean on the buggy while pushing it or even standing with it to keep from being in too much pain. Today I had to walk alongside the buggy because my mom had to hold onto it. Boy did I hurt afterwards! On the way home we had to stop and pick up Chik-Fil-A for my son and his friends and drop it off to them. I couldn’t pass up their mac n chz and got some for both mom and I. We ate that while driving over to my son. I just dropped her back off home and am now relaxing watching Best Baker in America on Hulu with my dogs. 

Tomorrow my son is officially a man! He turns 18 tomorrow. Time flies! I can’t believe he’s already 18. I no longer have young children. Both are adults now. I’ll never forget my pregnancies with my my kids. My son came on his due date! I had been sleeping when my contractions started and got up to tell his dad that we’d have to be going to the hospital soon. I decided to do the dishes while waiting on the contractions to be closer together. I would wash a couple then double over in pain gripping the counter. I finally called my mom and dad about 3am and told them I was going. I had him at 9:05am. He had the umbilical cord wrapped around his neck and the doctor didn’t want to scare me so she didn’t tell me. She just kept insisting I had to push and get his shoulders out. I had a horrible cold at the time and couldn’t breath through my nose. It was so annoying! They finally got the cord from around him and he was purple. He stayed purple for days! But he had the whitest blond little ringlets of hair. He weighed 8lbs 15.5oz. Big boy! Tomorrow we’re going to Red Lobster for his birthday dinner tomorrow. I kinda want to embarrass him and tell everyone that my little boy is now a man, lol

Tonight is tacos for dinner! I forgot I was taking my mom shopping today so I didn’t get to make the Magic Custard with sliced strawberries. I’ll make it tomorrow before taking my son out. That’s all that’s going on here. Take care everyone and stay warm!