The pain

I am so hot and so sore.  I got the bright idea of cleaning out my car and trying to sweep out all the dog hair. I also wanted to scrub all the surfaces and windows but only got to the windows. I couldn’t get all the hair out of the cars carpet.  It’s stuck there practically embedded. I did get it out of the seats for the most part though. I have a lot of pain in my right shoulder from repetitive motion. It happens anytime I do anything like sewing, playing cornhole, writing alot,  cleaning windows, etc…It has been getting really sore for a few years and when I last had it my family doctor thought it was something serious and sent me to a specialist. The specialist checked me then said that I had bursitis and put me on Prednisone. It helped alot but then awhile later the pain came back. I haven’t went back to see the doctor for it again but probably should. I have a feeling it wasn’t bursitis. My mom had problems with her shoulder and had to eventually have the whole shoulder replaced. I’m not saying that I need that but I think I’m on the same path she was on. First she had pain and then later had to have surgery on her rotator cuff and then years later the replacement. I hope I’m wrong and that’s not the same problem I’m having. I wake up most mornings with throbbing pain in my shoulder. I guess it’s time to check it out again. 

Other than cleaning out my car I went to my mom’s this morning for a bit. She’s been bugging me alot lately. After her hip replacement they put her on 5mg Percocet twice daily for the pain but she’s use to taking higher dosages because she use to be in pain management like I am and since she’s been kicked out she gets pills from a friend to help her everyday pain. The 5mg isn’t cutting it, especially only twice a day so she’s been begging me for my pills. She thinks I’m being selfish because I’m “letting her suffer” and not giving her anything. I’m in pain management for a reason. I NEED my medicine. I can’t give it up. I finally did get her to leave me alone though. 

I came home from there and ate my lunch then ran to the grocery store for a few things.  Mom needed some things also so I picked them up for her. She sees I’m getting extra food assistance because of Covid and thinks I can just afford to get her stuff too. I mean, I guess I can this month but I don’t want her to make a habit of it. I don’t know what it is with her that I have trouble saying “No” to. It’s always been that way. Both my ex’s had problems with me not being able to say “No” to her. The only thing I say no to is my meds. But even after that I feel bad. 

Anyway, tonight we’re having tacos for dinner. I say we’re because I think my son might join me though I don’t know for sure. I do know that he wanted me to take him to Menchies for frozen yogurt. He asked last night but it was too late for me so I told him that if he still wanted it today to let me know early enough and I’d take him. He even offered to pay but I told him I would. He doesn’t have much money so I rather him keep it and just let me take care of it. 

That’s all from me today, take care everyone!