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I don’t like being left alone because I know that I will do something, because I own a pocket knife, and I know where the kitchen knives are, every time I see one I have the VERY FUCKING INTENSE urge to slit my throat. 🙂 Depression is fun isn’t it? honestly a mental institution would be better then living in constant pain and wanting to scream until I cry because I cant handle it anymore. anyway my mom found out that I’m suicidal my dad is getting me a therapist, my appointment is in a month. A GODDAMN MONTH hahaha in a month after i cant take a walk without wanting to go into traffic, I cant go to school without thinking everyone is judging me and I cant focus because on panic attacks and adhd THIS LIFE IS JUST SO FUCKING FUN.  cant tell anyone because they don’t care or don’t understand. really wanna be put in a mental hospital.