#depression

I have a couple therapy assignments right now, and one of them is to make a list of ways I can combat the inevitable seasonal depression that settles in right around when we change our clocks back. It is always very jarring, and renders me completely unproductive, even when up until that point I'...

Damn I fucking love ducks

I let myself cry now. And there really is no holding back. It's not the full on cry, the cry that makes you a mess. It's the kind of cry that you just get out of your system, and yet it's enough to drag me into an emotional exhaustion. It's the kind of cry that's very…

When I was out and about being a bad girl, I became close with someone on my daughter's father's side of the family. He was a bad drug and alcohol user. Eventually we hooked up a few times and decided being good friends was the best option . After committing some major crimes he turned…

Last night, while mindlessly scrolling through my facebook feed I come across a local video gaining publicity. The video is of a woman, possibly overdosed in a car. The man taping her is violently shaking her, her neck bending back and forth while screaming "wake up you junkie fuck", and complain...

So today merits a slightly improved mood. Not as good as ordinary moods of everyday folk but better than usual. I am however frustrated beyond reasonable parameters by my ever failing dream... I am attempting to create a video game, just like 5 year old me dreamed back when I was running through ...

1. What did you do in 2018 that you’d never done before? Lost my dad, lost a child, had my world destroyed and reconnected with some old friends 2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don't make resolutions. If you want to do or be…

I'm 29 now and feel more jaded than ever. I had a man who loved me to the moon And back and would literally do anything for me. I ended it because I didn't love him. How the fuck couldn't I love him? Now I've got a new man and I should be all butterflies…

I've been awake 24 hours or more, but let me recap. We were supposed to have a house party yesterday but I had to work so I got there late (yes, to a party at my own house). I stopped first at value village to find something to wear. Alas, I was lucky to find…

No bites. At anywhere I applied. And I try to stay hopeful. But it is getting hard. I am leaning on my faith, trusting in God that I'm where I'm supposed to be now and will be where I'm supposed to be whenever its time. But the sorrow and depression coming to a tense, hostile…