#depression

I'm 29 now and feel more jaded than ever. I had a man who loved me to the moon And back and would literally do anything for me. I ended it because I didn't love him. How the fuck couldn't I love him? Now I've got a new man and I should be all butterflies…

I've been awake 24 hours or more, but let me recap. We were supposed to have a house party yesterday but I had to work so I got there late (yes, to a party at my own house). I stopped first at value village to find something to wear. Alas, I was lucky to find…

No bites. At anywhere I applied. And I try to stay hopeful. But it is getting hard. I am leaning on my faith, trusting in God that I'm where I'm supposed to be now and will be where I'm supposed to be whenever its time. But the sorrow and depression coming to a tense, hostile…

When I signed up using my email address it was for my other, private diary. I even have the email with the diary name, so I know for a fact it was my other diary, but somehow my main diary wound up connected to it. I have no idea how, but I'm glad. My other…

It’s been a week. 7 whole days since you last slid relief across your thigh and watched your pain bleed in to the water. The urges have been there, but you’re finding ways to cope with them, to deal with them. The pain isn’t as bad as it was, you’re starting to process again and…

So… I think it’s actually working. Either that or I’m so ill with this respiratory infection that I’ve become delirious. I’ve decided to let go of the idea that I’ll ever be the person I was again. I’ve packed her up and filed her away. Until I let go of her, and the past, I…

So....   I started writing this before I went for my appointment, but things have changed so I scrubbed it and I’m starting again. Today was the day. Today I went back into therapy. Clinical Hypnotherapy & NLP to be precise. I won’t lie, I was an absolute mess this morning when I got up,...

“Crystal heart in the graveyard, I think it’s time for a new start...” Kailee Morgue (Unfortunate Soul)   So...   I didn’t go for coffee with Straight Girl. Instead I had a chat with Pip about what’s going on and how I’m struggling with the inside of my own head, and then I went and sat...

“Crystal heart in the graveyard, I think it’s time for a new start...” Kailee Morgue (Unfortunate Soul)   So...   I didn’t go for coffee with Straight Girl. Instead I had a chat with Pip about what’s going on and how I’m struggling with the inside of my own head, and then I went and sat...

So... I can’t sleep. I’m lay here wide awake with the urge racing through my veins. Maybe my trip to Rock Bottom wasn’t a day trip, maybe I need to kick about down here for a little while but without collecting souvenirs. I’m completely med-free at the moment. I start the new meds on Tuesday…