#depression

  I need to get the thoughts out of my head. All these thoughts are made up of too many words and there’s not enough space here. Every night it feels like my head is melting, every night for over a year now. The mental stress has turned to physical aches. It use to be…

There has been no doubt that this year has ultimately sucked and its not even over yet. And the thing is I have found myself with more mental and emotional stress than in 2018. Thinking about it, 2018 was hard on me but in so many different ways. The bouts of depression left rather quickly…

TW...   What I thought that it was gonna be a good day at the hospital it turned out to be not so good.  I went in today with my mom for her doctor's appointment but while we were where my mom asked me to talk to the doctor about my asthma and have I…

  TRIGGER WARNING! Let us take a break about talking about Francisco, and take a trip down Mental health lane. In 2015, I moved out of my parents house and into my own space. I was starting college and working at the same time. October came around and I met this guy who changed my life.…

Here I am again, fighting depression. I know it's never really gone away, but it's got me by the throat again. Before we even got pregnant I knew that post partum was an issue I would have to face - it's been 15 months since our beautiful baby was born and I'm in the throws.…

I hate coming home. It’s a Friday evening - a beautiful evening - and I’m drinking. I’ve been scheduled in work all week next week, which I’m happy about. It’s an escape. I see friends. I forget. But for now, I’m drinking. I hate when I do this. It fucks up my running and that’s…

Letting go of... Everything that happend this year i just constantly felt empty and angry some days when i just wanted to feel something i would hurt myself because if i wasn’t hurting myself i was hurting everyone around me. And if i wasn’t feeling angry i was feeling so sad most days i would&he...

Don’t know how long my journey will last. It’s been a struggle for sure but has had its ups. I’m tempted all the time to just take chance, play Russian roulette with my life so to speak. It’s only takes me a split second to join the game. The outcome so far, I’ve been so…

Good Morning. At first, I typed Monday. And then I thought no that isn't right. Lord, every day I wake up I have to think about what day it actually is. That is what retirement does to you. It's not all bad. Seems I don't go to appointments much and nothing seems that important to…

Do you ever feel like your drowning? Like no matter how many times you inhale, you're not getting enough air. Today was one of those days where I felt like there wasn't enough air on this planet that would make this sinking feeling in my chest disappear, but I guess that's just one of the…