#depression

“Anybody remotely interesting is mad, in some way or another.” ~Dr. Who When I tell someone about my illness for the first time it frequently elicits the following reaction: "YOU?  DEPRESSED?  You're always so bubbly and happy!!"   My response: "You don't see me during the depressive episodes whe...

“Are you a psychopath or a sociopath?” ~Title of recent Michael Savage podcast's interview with neuroscientist Dr. James Fallon When I heard Michael Savage (longtime radio personality who has multiple degrees and a doctorate in epidemiology - fascinating man) announce the title for a recent podca...

I came here because I didn't know what else to do. This was a new choice. A chance to start a new life. I thought everything would fall into its place once I got here. And it is falling into place, but very slowly. I still feel anxious before interacting with people. I still feel…

I have a couple therapy assignments right now, and one of them is to make a list of ways I can combat the inevitable seasonal depression that settles in right around when we change our clocks back. It is always very jarring, and renders me completely unproductive, even when up until that point I'...

Damn I fucking love ducks

I let myself cry now. And there really is no holding back. It's not the full on cry, the cry that makes you a mess. It's the kind of cry that you just get out of your system, and yet it's enough to drag me into an emotional exhaustion. It's the kind of cry that's very…

When I was out and about being a bad girl, I became close with someone on my daughter's father's side of the family. He was a bad drug and alcohol user. Eventually we hooked up a few times and decided being good friends was the best option . After committing some major crimes he turned…

Last night, while mindlessly scrolling through my facebook feed I come across a local video gaining publicity. The video is of a woman, possibly overdosed in a car. The man taping her is violently shaking her, her neck bending back and forth while screaming "wake up you junkie fuck", and complain...

So today merits a slightly improved mood. Not as good as ordinary moods of everyday folk but better than usual. I am however frustrated beyond reasonable parameters by my ever failing dream... I am attempting to create a video game, just like 5 year old me dreamed back when I was running through ...

1. What did you do in 2018 that you’d never done before? Lost my dad, lost a child, had my world destroyed and reconnected with some old friends 2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don't make resolutions. If you want to do or be…