"No one is useless in the world who lightens the burden of another." - Charles Dickens
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
You Are Not Alone Circle
My Experience on Bodyshaming
As a teenager, I've always been body-shamed and I took attention to it just this year. People in my school would call me names like "skeleton", "stick", "tree branch" because I was skinny and taller than the rest. They would also call me "espasol" because of my fair skin. The worse about this is ...
Crawling Out of My Skin
Crawling out of my skin. That’s the best way to describe my current feelings. I can’t explain them. I don’t understand them. Yet, it’s there. Full force. Worst anxiety in quite awhile. Why? What’s different? I just don’t know. Yet the anxiety is unbearable. I just want to chain smoke. Disassociat...
He Strikes Again
Cruel. The best way to describe him is a cruel, evil, narcissistic monster that will go to any length to hurt me. Crush me. Ruin my day & knock me down. How can anyone be so awful? I’ve been doing well with no contact. Picking up the pieces of my life. Moving on. Yet, in…
How?
Hi , how can you be the love of someone's life but yet you are utterly alone.....
Too Much and Not Enough?
This is a new experience for me. I find that if I write down my thoughts and feelings, I tend to be more willing to express them vs. verbally. So... here goes. I am everyone's "go-to person" and it is to the point that I somedays can't get my head above water trying to manage…
Attorney Calls. Finances.
I’m realizing the days I have therapy I just feel so drained and blah after. Like wanting to cry, but not cry. Just alone, silence, decompressing. I know it’s normal as you’re really digging deep during that time and of course it’s emotionally draining. Working both jobs yesterday kept me distrac...
Therapy Today
Made it to therapy this morning. It’s healthy. It’s good. Yet, it’s so hard. We went over the events of the last couple weeks. Obviously, there was a lot. She agrees that I need boundaries, to not just let him do what he wants and is thankful the attorneys are forcing this to be done.…
Awful Couple of Days
It’s been a long couple of days. Of course, something had to happen after the happy pictures to throw it all off. To begin, douche returned to being a complete douche. He started nice. Offering me a carton of cigarettes, back to wanting to be friends, telling me how great I looked and how jealous...
Better Day. Comparison Pictures. Working on happy.
Today’s better. Much better. I guess yesterday was better too as it went on. There is still a part of me that’s sad. I think it always will be tho. His stepdad is a hard relationship to lose. I truly cared about him. I enjoyed him & knew him before I ever met his stepson.…
I feel lost
I feel like I’m loosing my sense of self. I find myself wondering what am I actually like or where my actual interest lies. This is all thanks to my mother’s habit of comparing me to my friends and even my other four siblings. Her habit of always throwing every little mistake I made to…