
Moving on is not linear
Today, I am back to feeling crappy from being left for someone else... 4 months ago. Some days I feel like I'm doing really well. Some days I feel like it just happened a week ago. Moving on is not linear. Moving on is not like an easy task that we can just tick off…
Different day, same scene.
It is yet another Thursday, another month, another year. The same drift, the same dismantled daily theme follows. Yes, it is a vicious cycle that, as it ends, seems to beam with some hope of change at the end of the daylight break. But, all in all, it is a mere illusion that this change…
Tomorrow is Always a New Day…
I feel like a hostage in this life. I'm ready to be let go. I'm not afraid of dying and this world has never felt like home. Life is much harder than death I'm sure, but who ever concluded that death is dying. I would never hurt myself or anyone, it's not who I am.…
Another day
I have been pulling away from the world, from those I love and everyone. Nothing excites me, i feel empty. I need someone to talk to but there is no one. I am tired of living. #depression #mentalhealth
Mentally exhausted
I am already at a point where I feel nothing but tiredness. There are days when I feel kind of okay but mostly unhappy and unsatisfied. It's like nothing excites me anymore. I am just tired. Tired of life, tired of feeling empty. Just. Tired.
Tired
Every day seems like another day towards the inevitable. Things are getting worse for me everyday, no matter how hard I try it just seems like nothing works. Most times it feels like I take 1 step forward and 20 steps backward. My accounts are empty now and I have no idea what to do…
Relapse
Last year, I went through the toughest heart break of my life. I trusted a person who seemed genuine but ended up leaving me for someone else. He has bipolar disorder 2, has an avoidant attachment style and I think he may also have narcissistic personality disorder. I know many of you might say t...
2nd Entry
I want to be honest here. Anytime I talk about myself or mention myself in any kind of way, I feel selfish and the self loathing starts. I really don't know what do to about that. It's why I decided to come on here, where no one knows me. I thought it would be easier…
Bleeding Money
I’m just sitting in the shower. Bawling. Somedays it’s what I do best. I am just so over things somedays. I’ve been sick. Forever. M shared strep with me and I got an amazing cold on top of it. Like covid was better than this cold. Of course this all starts hours before M’s tubes…
Speaking my Mind in the Moment.
Maybe I should write something too. Maybe something sensible or maybe something senseless. All these senseless things, however judgmental I may come off as, are opinions and ideas floating around with no backbone. It's dawned on me how ridiculous it is not to discuss ridiculous things considering...