You Are Not Alone Circle
Day 10 – It only hurts worse.
It's supposed to get better - right? Well, nothing is better. The truth - it's worse. Each day is worse than the day before. Each day I have less hope. Each day my will to live, to fight this, diminishes even more. Each day I cry harder, hurt more. I've went through break-ups, a nasty…
DO NOT DISTURB MY DEMONS
*I have secrets...I won't tell...just know I have them! They are better left in the attic because not many can handle what lurks deep in my soul! Do not disturb my demons...my demons don't play well with others...they like staying in the dark...it's better that way!* 2 days ago I received ...
Day 3 – So hurt and broken.
Day 3. I decided maybe I’d start documenting life in days. Day 3 Post Max - to say I’m fucked would be an understatement. I’m broken. Absolutely and utterly broken. I knew my heart could shatter - I learned this when we lost our daughter. Yet, I didn’t know it could shatter all over again.…
Maladaptive Coping Styles
Maladaptive Coping Styles - therapists words. Not mine thank you. I think my coping styles are just fucking fine. I’m still struggling to accept the things M says and does. He doesn’t even deserve to have his name spelled out these days. He’s turned into an utterly mean person. Spent 3 hours in t...
Not Good Enough For Him
My world is simply falling apart. While his is… falling together? How many nights must one person cry themselves to sleep in a lifetime before it’s enough? This isn’t fair. All I can keep returning to is that - this is not fair. What did I do to deserve to be treated like this? Why…
Get to know me before u judge me
Get to know me before u judge me. I'm in my masculine energy because A man gave me no choice but to step up where he slacked off. I didn't ask for that role it was given to me. I'm boisterous n loud because I was raised that way. I'm a good kind of hood meaning…
Eat shit pie my Guy
Why is it that ur the bitch or ur made out to be the fowl one once u decide ur done with his bullshit shenanigans? Once u stand on what u said u were going to do eventually...now the narrative has changed in the story according to him...ur the crazy toxic one...ur the jealous one...ur…
Mum’s Death
As I said in my previous post, my mum died on October 4th 2023. She was just over a month shy of her 84th birthday. A good innings, so people say. She had Parkinson's dementia and I have written about it a little in previous posts. It was extremely difficult to deal with. In the…
Never judge a book by it’s cover.
It's finally Friday. I'd be absolutely thrilled about this - Except I open at the restaurant tomorrow, so Friday is essentially irrelevant today. At least I don't work tonight and can get some much needed cleaning, relaxing and simply breathing done. The judgment and assumptions of people amaze...
Valentine Tip Money. Tip/Budget Planning for Mayo Trip.
Last night's time at work was pretty freaking crazy - to say the least. Another waitress had asked if I wanted to work - well, yeah, I'm good and don't need it off. I could care less about spending Valentine's Day out if the option to make money instead is there. I figured it would…