"No one is useless in the world who lightens the burden of another." - Charles Dickens
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
You Are Not Alone Circle
It’s Not Okay
I hate feeling like I do. I hate feeling crazy, defeated, confused, sad. Most of all I hate feeling alone. So miserably alone. I’ve been thinking lately. Maybe I should see someone myself. Maybe I need to search for a way to fuel my own soul when my entire week is spent fueling others. But…
If Only Things Were Different….
I don't trust myself I guess. I shouldn't be putting myself through so much mental health hell. I'm trying though. Besides the past two days, I've been doing pretty good emotionally/mental health-wise. I saw my therapist today and the session made some valid points. I've finally pinpointed the ca...
Scream and Purge
Ever got the urge to just scream? It's crazy that I got that urge. I say "crazy' because this week hasn't been too bad for me. I know it's only Wednesday, but I haven't had these many good days in a row in...awhile...actually "awhile" doesn't even cut it, neither does "forever". Over exaggera...
People Shouldn’t Judge
It gets under my skin when people become judgmental towards a person they know nothing about. That person you're judging...you don't know there past or how their childhood was. There are reasons for everything. I share my feelings in hopes that someone can help me, give me advice, help me underst...
Is It All in My Head? Am I Being Gaslighted?
I was very apprehensive about this entry... and joining Open Diary in general, even though I'm under "Anonymously Honest". There's just something about laying it all out there for anyone and everyone to see and the possibility of getting negative reactions/responses. I guess I'm just nervous t...
My saving grace
She was not my favorite person in the beginning, and to be quite honest, I probably wouldn't have given her a fair chance had she not been pregnant with my grandson. I didn't know that in the end of their story, she would be my peace. My grandson, my son's son, was born in 2016.…
Happy to Be Alone?
Good morning, I used to not be happy on Fridays because I'm usually left alone for the weekend. But lately, I've been okay with being alone. I guess I'd rather feel alone when I'm actually alone, and not feel alone when my significant other is under the same roof as me. If that makes any…
My Junkie Child
I didn't know how bad it had gotten until last year. I knew that he popped pills every so often, but I didn't know how that had gone from full time, to occasional, to full time, from pills, to heroin, and then on to meth. I didn't know that in less than a year, I'd…
The Rabbit Hole Is Waiting
5:39 pm I'm trying my hardest to be positive right now. It baffles me how someone can change so much so fast. I question myself; has this person always been like this? Am I just now noticing it? I must have been asleep... I guess I'm finally "awake" now. I find myself on the edge…
The Sun Has to Come out….
I can wake up one morning, sit up in bed and think "Okay, it's a new day... Think positive. Be happy." Then all of a sudden I have a flashback of a memory. One memory leads pushes me down a dark painful rabbit hole. And I'm not even out of the bed yet, my…