"No one is useless in the world who lightens the burden of another." - Charles Dickens
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
You Are Not Alone Circle
Another woman, gone too soon.
Why is there always so much bad in the world? I find most of the bad I know personally is drug or alcohol related. Heartbreaking really. My son used to work with this guy. I never liked him. Hated him really. Zak was 15 - 18. This guy would give him nice boots, shirts, etc.…
The rest of the story.
Tired of being tired. That sums up my whole life. 100%. 3 weeks. That’s what I’ve decided is the end of the awful chaos. I work this weekend. Next weekend I have off BUT it’s graduation so it’s not even like a weekend off as I’ll be so busy. So, 3 weeks and my every…
Negative Friend – Over it!
I’m still tired. Nothing unusual there. I’m thinking though. Okay, I always think. Maybe it isn’t the entire world I need to avoid to feel like I can breathe. I’m doing it all wrong. It’s just certain people I need to cut out as much as possible. Keeping the people who actually add value to…
An Unexpected Turn of Events
In the middle of a sunny day, around 2 o'clock in the afternoon, shouts and laughter were heard from children enthusiastically playing one-on-one (a popular kid's game here in our barangay). Watching them made me remember how my childhood days were. I thought to myself, we used to be like this be...
Too much to do.
Slow but steady…. I determined during my last rambling I needed to work one step at a time to eventually prepare for a vacation. I took the time to figure out how to do my Social Security name change this week. It’s a pain as we have no local offices. However, I called and could…
Dreams of a Vacation. Life Schedule.
I want a vacation. Where? I have no idea. But to literally unplug, recenter, breathe, enjoy life. A vacation to simply find myself. How will I make that happen? I have no freaking clue. None. Work even more? That seems counter productive. Hard core. I wish my larger expenses would just magically...
Feeling the feelings.
Life is just overwhelming. That’s really the moral of the story. Tired. Exhausted. Anxious. Overwhelmed. Pretty simple. We went over this in therapy Friday. I’m avoiding the world. If I don’t get paid to talk to you. I quit and I’m not talking. Not accepting calls. Texts. Nothing. She pointed out...
Overwhelmed & need a break.
I’ve been really struggling the last couples weeks. I can’t really say why - Too much people time. Too much to do. Organized chaos at it’s finest. Frequent triggering moments. All of the above? I’m in the pull away stage of my brain. Not answering the phone. Ignoring invites. I really need to jus...
Nolan returned to rescue. And “Church” aka Cult time.
*sigh* Nolan didn’t end well. In the end, he wasn’t dog friendly. At least not with dogs that planned to live with him forever. After too many fights, attempted fights, bruises, separation I decided it was best to give him back. I’m sad. But it wasn’t fair for either of us or the other dogs.…
Hope in Jesus
Family and success don't come without stress and trying to manage is nothing short of a struggle. Exhaustion and loneliness take hold and I miss out on so much. I merely hope they know I love them. The long hours fail to cease but I try to remain hopeful the good Lord will get me…