"No one is useless in the world who lightens the burden of another." - Charles Dickens
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
You Are Not Alone Circle
A Happier Version of You
My daughter drew a picture of me at school. A little happy sun above me. Me, clothed in rainbows. Jittery shock of clown red hair. Black pits for eyes. And a u-shaped smile. She points, “Look, mom! I drew you like you’re actually happy for once.” How do you not cry when your kid says…
losing mom and it’s killing me more
It happened 2 weeks ago today. It was so fast I don’t even know how it started. To see the signs now makes me regret even more not acting faster. It is inevitable to retrace my steps and scream while I realize that I could have done things differently. Mom was diagnosed with stage…
Just Another Buzzard
TRIGGER WARNING to you, c., that day has started to come back. i remember i was maybe almost 6 & shake-shattering into a million pieces on your bed. a wine glass dropped in the middle of a dinner party. a baseball through the window of an abandoned old house. shards and pieces you can’t jigsa...
Another 5 years have passed…
5 years since my last entry....and how things have changed in those 5 years ! I have moved from Austin to the Bay Area, sold the Austin home, with hopes of "making it big" in the Bay Area It has been 2 years since then, and I am not really thriving yet on the career…
E.D.
If I can stop one heart from breaking I shall not live in vain. ~Emily Dickinson
Too Big
I've recently gone through some serious health issues that have left me unable to work, so I sit in a chair a lot, and have decided to use the time to write a memoir, something I've wanted to do for a long time. I've been reading through old journals, old files, old emails, etc., looking…
Distraught, Defeated and Done
So I've ranted on and on here about the evils of my job. But wait, there's more. I am crying pretty much every day. I need this job to be able to pay our mortgage. Yet working here has me so beaten down and defeated I don't know how much more I can take. I…
Over it!
I am so over it. Totally, utterly over it. I simply want to close my eyes, go to sleep & not wake up for a very, very, very long time. Sometimes life is too much. Lately I've hit that point. It's too much. It's hard. It's exhausting. It's not fair. Instead of sleeping I continue…
Snakes or ladders
One thing I have had cause to reflect on recently is the quality and genuineness of the people in my life. When you become a single person (particularly a single parent) after being in a long term relationship for all of your adult life, it can be a lonely place. Your friends and family become&he...
himself.
He isn't what we expected. Most parents don't spend every waking hour worrying they are making the right decisions, doing the right things, fighting the right battles. They don't worry about the long term damage of giving in or fighting against or ignoring the situation. They don't worry that the...