"No one is useless in the world who lightens the burden of another." - Charles Dickens
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
You Are Not Alone Circle
Wishing for things that never come
I am at a loss for what to do. My significant other has a libido that is abysmal… mine is high. It’s such an awkward thing to discuss with people but I just wish I could have answers. Why doesn’t my significant other want to have sex with me? Why does it seem like a…
And just like that… the IVF process begins.
Seriously. I feel like I'm in the "hurry up and wait" game. It's constant. Do this, do that. Now wait. It's been going on since our obgyn appointment in May. Yet, I've played this game for over a decade - nearly two. We had our consult yesterday. I was so stressed about which game plan…
Called it – Now fostering.
Last week I said I feared there would be a CPS Removal if my co-worker didn't figure out her life and do better. Sadly, those words were far too true. Her child's father came back and she returned to him. Again. I ended up texting her Tuesday that if she was staying at the apartment…
Call to CPS; Waiting for RE appt
Sigh. People and their shitty ass choices are too much for me. Why? I get life’s hard. I understand trauma bonds better than many. I get the domestic violence cycle and returning. I lived it. I physically beat it. (Emotionally I’ll always be working on beating it I feel.) But to return repeatedly...
First One
Hello people. This is my first digital diary entry. I've been journaling for a few years now and have felt recently that I should share my experiences with others. Not sure why. Anyway, if anyone has shared any of my experiences, I'd love to know how you have dealt with them. Problem shared is a&...
Too many feelings.
I'm exhausted. Imagine that. The nightmares continued last week. I don't understand, yet I understand. I wish I had control over triggers and life and could just feel like a functioning human some days. Sometimes I wonder... if he died... would it end? Would the nightmares end? Would the f...
More Testing. Family aka Fake Pictures
It's finally Friday! Amazingly, I have the weekend off - assuming the restaurant world doesn't end of course - and that is a miracle in itself. I'm exhausted so I'm not sure how productive or fun it will be. However, not serving people food sounds appealing in itself. This world better not en...
ExFil Hospital. Crazy Girl. Stupid Mom.
Tired. Tired of breathing. Tired of stupid people. Tired of drama. Tired of working. Tired of the endless list of tasks that never end. Tired of being tired. Enough said. It’s 6:45. I’m simply trying to keep myself awake until 8. Worried if I go lay in bed I’ll never leave it again or I’ll…
Still No Contact, Doctors, Rambling.
Still swimming through this thing we call life. Often don't know which way is up, but hey, I'm going which is all that matters. Son's been at college for 3 1/2 weeks now. Week 2 he got an ear infection and had to go to the clinic. (I'm fairly confident this is a combination of…
No Contact w/ Mom, Son to College, Infertility Journey Beginning
Life - it's a rough roller coaster far too often. I haven't wrote in forever. There's so many things to say, yet I never know where to begin. So, I just skip it all together. However, with all the ups and downs I feel like I NEED to write, WANT to write. Something is better…