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• The rest of the story.

  May 13, 2022

  Tired of being tired. That sums up my whole life. 100%. 3 weeks. That’s what I’ve decided is the end of the awful chaos. I work this weekend. Next weekend I have off BUT it’s graduation so it’s not even like a weekend off as I’ll be so busy. So, 3 weeks and my every…

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• Negative Friend – Over it!

  May 12, 2022

  I’m still tired. Nothing unusual there. I’m thinking though. Okay, I always think. Maybe it isn’t the entire world I need to avoid to feel like I can breathe. I’m doing it all wrong. It’s just certain people I need to cut out as much as possible. Keeping the people who actually add value to…

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• Too much to do.

  May 6, 2022

  Slow but steady…. I determined during my last rambling I needed to work one step at a time to eventually prepare for a vacation. I took the time to figure out how to do my Social Security name change this week. It’s a pain as we have no local offices. However, I called and could…

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• Dreams of a Vacation. Life Schedule.

  May 2, 2022

  I want a vacation.  Where? I have no idea. But to literally unplug, recenter, breathe, enjoy life. A vacation to simply find myself. How will I make that happen? I have no freaking clue. None. Work even more? That seems counter productive. Hard core. I wish my larger expenses would just magically...

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• Feeling the feelings.

  May 1, 2022

  Life is just overwhelming. That’s really the moral of the story. Tired. Exhausted. Anxious. Overwhelmed. Pretty simple. We went over this in therapy Friday. I’m avoiding the world. If I don’t get paid to talk to you. I quit and I’m not talking. Not accepting calls. Texts. Nothing. She pointed out...

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• Overwhelmed & need a break.

  April 28, 2022

  I’ve been really struggling the last couples weeks. I can’t really say why - Too much people time. Too much to do. Organized chaos at it’s finest. Frequent triggering moments. All of the above? I’m in the pull away stage of my brain. Not answering the phone. Ignoring invites. I really need to jus...

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• Nolan returned to rescue. And “Church” aka Cult time.

  April 14, 2022

  *sigh* Nolan didn’t end well. In the end, he wasn’t dog friendly. At least not with dogs that planned to live with him forever. After too many fights, attempted fights, bruises, separation I decided it was best to give him back. I’m sad. But it wasn’t fair for either of us or the other dogs.…

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• Nightmares Again. College time.

  April 3, 2022

  The nightmares have been coming back. Awful, horrid nightmares. I’ve been trying to think why. What important subconscious date is here? What’s different? Why? The last couple have seemed similar. The same concept. Last night it was all about Captain Douche. Let’s just start calling him CD. Being...

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• Tired. So tired.

  March 31, 2022

  Tired. It could sum up my life entirely. Utterly exhausted. I need a long vacation to nowhere other than my bed. For real. Both jobs are killing me. Being sick for basically over 2 months now, also killing me. Combined it’s an awful combination. The chick whom sucked to work with quit. Then the o...

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