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Another Day

January 11, 2021
The world hasn’t ended yet. My husband is living in this world of conspiracy theories. He’s failed to notice the media’s goal is scare us. Both sides are officially insane. That’s about all I have to say. The radicals in each end suck. The nation sucks. Everyone sucks. (I sound really intellectua...
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