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The Loss of Jake

October 19, 2021
My sweet, amazing almost 12 year old rescue Jake passed peacefully in his sleep yesterday. There’s no apparent reason except his age. He laid down, in his favorite spot, while I made dinner and never woke up, never made another sound. My heart is broken. I’ve always said the best thing about gett...
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