Recent Entries

• EX-MIL strikes again. Of course.

  June 1, 2023

  Sometimes, the little things in life really hurt.  Things you thought you were over, but they just resurface every so often.  Maybe to see if they can pick the scab off, make that old wound sting just a little. I'm tired - Tired of holding my damn head up and being the bigger person.  Tired…

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• IVF Ramblings – Foster Son Going Home

  May 17, 2023

  It's one of those days.  I have a lot of "those days" lately it seems.  If you could earn money for crying I'd be rich. Literally. Yet, I keep a smile on.  I pretend life is f'ing fabulous.  It's not fabulous.  It's downright shitty and unfair.  It's frustrating to always have to work my ass…

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• Next Retrieval – Early June. M – Going Home.

  May 5, 2023

  2023 seems to be flying by.  Far too fast.  Way too many ups and downs.  It's slightly a train wreck, slightly amazing, largely uneventful.  All into one? IVF related - We're gearing up for the next round.  I emailed our clinic and we're good to go. Nothing left to do.  I just need to reply…

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• The Usual Frustration

  April 18, 2023

  I’m in just an awful, crabby, annoyed mood. Doesn’t make much. Yet it takes a lot. If that makes any sense. Ultimately, I’ve got to figure out how to quit letting Max’s unhealthy family get to me. Quit letting his and their behavior turn me into a bitter asshole. Yet, it’s hard as they constantly...

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• March Budget Complete – April Next.

  March 31, 2023

  Well, it's basically April.  Which means my March budget is complete. Did I reach my goals?  Kind of.  Sort of.  Yes.  No. I wanted to save another $1K to end at a total of $5K but had thought getting to $6K would be a bonus.  Sadly, no $6K - But I hit my original (and…

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• Taking time to breathe

  March 20, 2023

  Laying in the shower. Why? Because my therapist told me to. That’s it. Simple. She thinks I need more time. More me time. More self care. More relaxation. More breathing. I also turned my phone to silent. If I need me time I need silence. Right? My phone also told me it had some new…

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• Sigh – Death is never fair.

  March 5, 2023

  I’m so freaking mad or sad. It depends on the second. To begin with I was sad. So sad. Then after more information all I could feel was intense anger with sadness added in. What the f’ing hell was he thinking? Today I missed some calls from my best friend. Followed by a text “V…

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• Money and Nightmares

  February 28, 2023

  Just another day in paradise. Sitting in my office job.  My new client likes to not actually come in.  So, we've got our 5th or 6th NCNS for enrollment.  I may fit her in this week if she happens to call or email.  I may not.  My boss said to start only scheduling her once…

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• Nothing really

  February 25, 2023

  I’m a seriously grouchy person. Why? I have no idea. Just everything. I’m simply exhausted and I feel like this makes me simply angry. I’ve worked an insane amount the last 3 weeks. The tips are great but I know better. I know that at the end of a 3 week run I’m always over…

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