Grief Circle
For my mother…
When I was younger, and too young to be aware that times were tough, my mother used what scraps we had in the fridge to prepare our supper. We were living from cheque to cheque back then and were less than two days from payday so Mom did whatever she could with whatever was available.…
i miss everyone
People around me always tell me that they applaud me for being such a strong person because despite losing my loved ones, I always manage to put on a brave face and move on. Truth is I'm so tired pretending to be strong all these years. Like so tired... Just a lil backstory, I lost my…
The Loss of Jake
My sweet, amazing almost 12 year old rescue Jake passed peacefully in his sleep yesterday. There’s no apparent reason except his age. He laid down, in his favorite spot, while I made dinner and never woke up, never made another sound. My heart is broken. I’ve always said the best thing about gett...
Four Years
For four years I've been an adult orphan. My mothers husband left her when she was diagnosed with cancer (6 years ago), and my abusive disgusting excuse for a brother moved out of the country a few months later. I never thought of it as a negative on my part. I loved spending g time…
Clench Jaw
Being the youngest in our family, my life shuts when my mother died last 2013. Mother supports my all the way, this time is a lot different, all my father's side, but the bloodline of my father are practicing cannibalism. I get to live where every touch, breathe, eats some kind of a raw meat,&hel...
20 Years & 5 Months Later, Justice for Steve
20 years later. Steve has been gone for 20 years. 20 years and exactly 5 months if you want to be specific. I think of him often. I look at my own children and so often think I can’t imagine if they were murdered tomorrow. Both of my boys are now officially older than Steve…
Already May
It’s already May. How did it get here so fast? How is it already nearly half over? Time is going too fast. We are almost at a year without Kira. An entire year. I think about her often. She was living her last days a year ago. Yet, she had no idea. She was hoping…
Just Missing K & Rambling
I miss her. Somedays worse than others. We are getting close to 11 Months. Close to a year. It isn’t fair. It’s not. She’s still here though. I know she is. The little signs. I was sitting here minutes ago. Looking at the “Out of the Darkness” Walk for Suicide Awareness. Making plans in my…
Drowning in Grief & Anxiety
Hi, Guys. I'm just trying out a new place to vent.. I don't really like to talk to people I know very much because, to be truthful, it feels like no one understands or even cares to. I have been through more than most people, even double my age, in my 24 years of life.…
Visits in a Dream
It’s been so long since I had a dream with him in it. Honestly, I can’t remember the last times. They’re always similar tho. Ending in a hug that feels so real. I woke this morning from one of those real, vivid dreams. He’d been gone in the Navy and was due home. Why the…