Grief Circle
Two Months Without You
My amazing friend - We are nearing 2 months. 2 full months without your glowing personality. All because evil won and took you away. Gosh, it’s been a long two months. Yet in the same breath I feel like it was just yesterday. Have I told you lately that I love you? That my heart…
Some Peace, Followed by Pain
Sometimes I feel like I’m doing so good. I’m going forward. Slowly. I miss her. I ache for her. But I go forward. Then something happens and it all crashes down. Boom shattered. You felt confident? How’s this extra hard kick to knock you back down? I didn’t want to be here for the month…
I miss you.
The title says it all. I fall asleep crying. I wake up in the middle of the night crying. I wake up in the morning to fresh tears streaming down my face before I can even open my eyes. My gosh. I. Miss. You. I can still hear your voice clear as day. I can…
Heartbroken – This wasn’t the answer.
To say I’m sad would be an understatement. I’m sad. I’m broken. I’m hurt. I’m angry. I’m confused. It’s awful. It’s 150% awful. I thought the tears were done. I thought I could turn off the light and sleep. Surrounded by darkness I glanced at Facebook. And here I am again. Sobbing. Asking why. W...
A Plan
I've been trying hard this week to leave the sadness behind. It's been really hard because I miss my dad. I'm trying to find meaning. You know, a way to justify all of this. But the truth is, I just can't. I know God has a plan for us. I know that somehow, at some…
Today
So today I am determined to make this a good day. I'm gonna try to get through this day. Today I have decided I am not going to ait around and cry. I'm going to focus . I'm going to get my work done. I'm going to feel ok.
Today has been…..
I'm feeling sad today. I'm in this weird place. I don't know. I don't feel like being sad today or talking about how sad I am. I'm just feeling sad. I worked a lot today. I had like 7 or 8 clients. It was a long day. They were all panicked over the virus and…
The Beat Keeps going on…..
I feel like I'm on a roller coaster. It's like I feel down and depressed for days. I cry. I cry and I cry. Then I have a day where the sun comes out and I think I have turned a corner. I wake up ready to work. Ready to help people. Then my client…
Hurting
I'm at this place that I don't understand. I mean, my rational mind understands it. I'm a Licensed Clinical Social Worker. I do feelings and thoughts for a living. I know all about the grieving process and processing loss and using coping skills. I know how to say things to make everyone feel bet...
Grandparents and other stories.
I have to sometimes wrap around their deaths. Though they raised me, it doesn't feel as though they're gone. To be quitehl honest, I'll never let go. They've done so much for me. I will always love them. Wglhich is quite hard to explain. They didn't know about me being gay, I should of told…