Grief Circle
Leaving only hurts the those left behind
I got some bad news from the my Dad regarding the new family he married into. One of my new cousins was in the middle of a bad break up. She had been married and had two kids with this man. I heard about their separation a few months ago and I was quite…
I Miss You Roy
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JryHMQCLB3Y I miss my beloved Roy L Mock so much. We had the best marriage and we could discuss everything and communicate. We had a beautiful daughter until CPS stepped into our lives and ruined our happy marriage and home. It destroyed Roy, Rebecca, and me. My po...
Random thought
I wrote this earlier this morning (well yesterday now) during church service as tears well up in my eyes and fall down my face and I wipe them away. I was going to add more to this but I'll leave it as it was. Maybe I grieve/mourn him still because I never got to say…
Thinking of All of You Over the Holidays
I lost my 9 year old son, the youngest of my four kids, 18 years ago. Writing through my raw grief really helped me. I have rediscovered my diary after five years. I decided to join this group. People grieving need to be surrounded with those that are grieving, too. I am here to offer…
Intermittent reality
As the days go by, some days I'm so mature, and I can say without breaking down and crying, that this is it for mom. Other days I cry with EVERYTHING. Practically everything in my home, in her home, brings me a memory. I hired a nurse one week after her episode, and she comes…
To the boy who stole my heart..
Dear X, I still love you and think about you... Every. Single. Day. A year has gone by since you inevitably broke my heart. "Broke," is too kind and soft of a word to describe the empty space filled with dust in this chest of mine. My heart will never belong to me again, my…
Nothing really
So I was going to start doing a work task. But I got a cuppa instead. I’ll sit and drink it while it’s hot and write a few words before moving on to do some actual work. Went for a walk/jog with my friend this morning. It was beautiful out there! I was very tempted…
An Orphan’s Tale
I was so blessed to have my parents as long as I did considering their health issues. Mom passed away on 05/13/03 after battling kidney failure for 30 years and having been on dialysis for 10 years. I just lost dad on 02/21/18. He had a horrible last three months so I am glad that…
And This is Why I’m Done
Even before I lost my baby, she was incredibly flaky. We have been friends for 13 years. She just randomly disappears off the face on the planet for weeks/months at time. You will send her a text/Facebook message, and she just never gets back to you. Then forever will go past, and she'll be like,...
I Witnessed A Friend Go Insane; Reunited Pt 2
Sigh. Writing this story is pretty difficult for me. My heart feels very heavy in my chest. But here is part two of "Reunited And It Feels So Good". After I shot Leo down for sex, he needed to run to the pharmacy to pick up something. He asked me if I wanted to tag…