Grief Circle
Grandparents and other stories.
I have to sometimes wrap around their deaths. Though they raised me, it doesn't feel as though they're gone. To be quitehl honest, I'll never let go. They've done so much for me. I will always love them. Wglhich is quite hard to explain. They didn't know about me being gay, I should of told…
The Five Stages of Grief
Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance The stages were originated by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross for terminally ill patients. But, those stages became used, in that order, to describe grief of all kinds for many people. Studies have shown, however, that not all grieving people experience ...
Leaving only hurts the those left behind
I got some bad news from my Dad regarding the new family he married into. One of my new cousins was in the middle of a bad break up. She had been married and had two kids with this man. I heard about their separation a few months ago and I was quite surprised.…
I Miss You Roy
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JryHMQCLB3Y I miss my beloved Roy L Mock so much. We had the best marriage and we could discuss everything and communicate. We had a beautiful daughter until CPS stepped into our lives and ruined our happy marriage and home. It destroyed Roy, Rebecca, and me. My po...
Random thought
I wrote this earlier this morning (well yesterday now) during church service as tears well up in my eyes and fall down my face and I wipe them away. I was going to add more to this but I'll leave it as it was. Maybe I grieve/mourn him still because I never got to say…
Thinking of All of You Over the Holidays
I lost my 9 year old son, the youngest of my four kids, 18 years ago. Writing through my raw grief really helped me. I have rediscovered my diary after five years. I decided to join this group. People grieving need to be surrounded with those that are grieving, too. I am here to offer…
Intermittent reality
As the days go by, some days I'm so mature, and I can say without breaking down and crying, that this is it for mom. Other days I cry with EVERYTHING. Practically everything in my home, in her home, brings me a memory. I hired a nurse one week after her episode, and she comes…
To the boy who stole my heart..
Dear X, I still love you and think about you... Every. Single. Day. A year has gone by since you inevitably broke my heart. "Broke," is too kind and soft of a word to describe the empty space filled with dust in this chest of mine. My heart will never belong to me again, my…
Nothing really
So I was going to start doing a work task. But I got a cuppa instead. I’ll sit and drink it while it’s hot and write a few words before moving on to do some actual work. Went for a walk/jog with my friend this morning. It was beautiful out there! I was very tempted…
An Orphan’s Tale
I was so blessed to have my parents as long as I did considering their health issues. Mom passed away on 05/13/03 after battling kidney failure for 30 years and having been on dialysis for 10 years. I just lost dad on 02/21/18. He had a horrible last three months so I am glad that…