Grief Circle
Anger into a Purpose
Still stumbling daily through this thing we call life. As always - Where to begin? I haven’t written lately. It’s easier to just ignore the world. Pretend none of it’s there. Take a break. Be me. Laying in bed. Angry. As always. I decided it wasn’t fair. It wasn’t fair he keeps taking things from...
So hard – More details – Can’t function.
Some nights hurt so bad I was to claw my body apart. I want to take out my heart. Take out any organ that produces emotion. I want to simply die. Be done. I just want the pain to stop. I know it’s a panic attack. I know if I keep breathing it’ll get better.…
Two Months Without You
My amazing friend - We are nearing 2 months. 2 full months without your glowing personality. All because evil won and took you away. Gosh, it’s been a long two months. Yet in the same breath I feel like it was just yesterday. Have I told you lately that I love you? That my heart…
Some Peace, Followed by Pain
Sometimes I feel like I’m doing so good. I’m going forward. Slowly. I miss her. I ache for her. But I go forward. Then something happens and it all crashes down. Boom shattered. You felt confident? How’s this extra hard kick to knock you back down? I didn’t want to be here for the month…
I miss you.
The title says it all. I fall asleep crying. I wake up in the middle of the night crying. I wake up in the morning to fresh tears streaming down my face before I can even open my eyes. My gosh. I. Miss. You. I can still hear your voice clear as day. I can…
Heartbroken – This wasn’t the answer.
To say I’m sad would be an understatement. I’m sad. I’m broken. I’m hurt. I’m angry. I’m confused. It’s awful. It’s 150% awful. I thought the tears were done. I thought I could turn off the light and sleep. Surrounded by darkness I glanced at Facebook. And here I am again. Sobbing. Asking why. W...
A Plan
I've been trying hard this week to leave the sadness behind. It's been really hard because I miss my dad. I'm trying to find meaning. You know, a way to justify all of this. But the truth is, I just can't. I know God has a plan for us. I know that somehow, at some…
Today
So today I am determined to make this a good day. I'm gonna try to get through this day. Today I have decided I am not going to ait around and cry. I'm going to focus . I'm going to get my work done. I'm going to feel ok.
Today has been…..
I'm feeling sad today. I'm in this weird place. I don't know. I don't feel like being sad today or talking about how sad I am. I'm just feeling sad. I worked a lot today. I had like 7 or 8 clients. It was a long day. They were all panicked over the virus and…
The Beat Keeps going on…..
I feel like I'm on a roller coaster. It's like I feel down and depressed for days. I cry. I cry and I cry. Then I have a day where the sun comes out and I think I have turned a corner. I wake up ready to work. Ready to help people. Then my client…