It’s me

Another early morning after another lonely weekend. It’s become apparent that maybe it’s me.

All my friends and family have just fallen out of my life and I now I realize, that it’s me. They don’t answer when I call or write. No visits or concerned check ins. I haven’t heard from any of them now for several months, even though I have made efforts to contact them all.

Maybe if I cheated or beat my ex wife, it could explain why everyone left me. Maybe if I lied constantly and just sycked the life from everyone.  Maybe if I showed no sense of concern, that would explain it all.

They are all right, it is me. I have had over a year and a half to become some one new, some one better and I’m a no one. I’m just a reminder of everything that was wrong for all of them back then.