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Over and over

December 29, 2020
Two years, that's almost how long it's been. I live the conversation over and over in my head everyday since. You on the other hand, you immediately started a new life with a new man. The divorce is done, you've remarried and I am stuck in two years ago. Actually, two years from today, we…
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