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A “last cry for help” kinda day

June 4, 2025
I've just left my kids Spring concert and I'm conflicted. I see the ex and her husband and how my sister sits with them all chatty and happy. Never once was she on my side in this divorce. A divorce I never wanted or caused. I start to get feelings of hate towards women. How…
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