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• Easter

  April 5, 2020

  I just picked up the boys some Easter candy and will mail it Monday, but something caught my eye. My ex was one of those "Family,  Love, and Happiness " collectors,  funny how she didn't practice what she preached, anyway I bought her something too. Now I know I'll never get a thank you and…

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• Observations

  April 3, 2020

  So, I decided to take a break from my usual whiney posts. Here are some things that annoy me: When a car is turning left into a drive, and someone is coming from the other way, why do they feel the need not to slow down? Turning signals, use them. My local Tim Hortons asking for…

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• Just have to say

  April 2, 2020

  I have a rant. I can not say this around my "friends" and "family" here, but I have to get it out.. I was a great husband and father. I have learned that I have been dealing with a mental condition for a number of years that affected a lot of judgements and decisions, but never…

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• #totw70

  April 1, 2020

  I have to say for me, this couldn't have came at a worse time. I have fought to get to a place where my divorce has become grudgingly acceptable through throwing myself into my job. A job that is considered non-essential. A case of the sniffles has kept me from taking my children for visitation&h...

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• Brain hurt

  March 29, 2020

  What god of fate did I piss off to be sitting here alone. Yes, it's been over a year. Yes, I been seeing a therapist and psychologist regularly.  Yes, I walked away pretty unscathed in the divorce. But, these were all choices forced on me. I came home one day last January and the woman…

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• BPD 2

  March 24, 2020

  I'm currently sitting in my car, parked at a Tim Hortons.  One of the only one's that are still 24 hours with the whole shutdown.  I can't sit at home and throughout this whole separation, sitting in my car, drinking coffee, and listening to podcasts has been the only escape. I was once again awo...

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• Black thought of the day

  March 21, 2020

  I can't help but to think that there is a fair chance of getting the Corona and dying alone without ever getting to see my kids again, because my ex dumped me because of the same money issues all marriages face.  She has refused to discuss her reasons for the last year and I have…

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• I guess I am the bad guy.

  March 17, 2020

  So little did I know that even though she cheated and left me. Moved a man into my house the same day I gave her the space she needed. Lied and forced this man into my kids lives and immediately played the high school game of calling herself by his last name where she could.…

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• Lonely

  March 16, 2020

  I don't remember ever being this lonely in my life. I used to look forward to the occasional "me" time, now I would give almost anything to be annoyed by the occasional neighbor. Now with the whole BPD diagnosis, it just seems to have gotten worse. I suppose that is my fault. I put it…

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