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Sunday morning 7/3

July 3, 2022
Today started with the best of intentions and within the first hour went to shit, as it always does. Grocery shopping was OK, until I discovered I did not have my wallet. There's an hour I can't get back. I don't even have the will to go back once I'm home. The neighbor's dogs launched…
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