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• Social ramblings from a old, bald, and fat man with BPD part 2

  July 30, 2020

  So, maybe I ruffled some feathers yesterday, so here we go again... White privilege, police, and racial inequality... Really? Do you really think whites all hate blacks? Do blacks hate whites? Is it right to judge a whole group? Is it right to judge one person on the sins of their ancestors? Ther...

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• Social ramblings from a old, bald, and fat man with BPD

  July 29, 2020

  What has become of common sense and thinking over the last several years? How is it the actions of a few people out of the millions of citizens caused such an unneeded response? Cities, businesses, and culture are burning. Large groups of young people who haven't even lived life are protesting an...

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• Mr. Bifaro

  July 27, 2020

  When I was a kid I had a paper route. One of my customers was Mr. Bifaro. I had never met a more angry man in my life. It wasn't an act, it was his reaction to everything and everyone. "Get off my grass" and " Why are you so late" were 2 of the…

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• Hard

  July 19, 2020

  I am starting to realize the only way through the rest of my days is to harden my heart and soul. I have been a loving and caring person all these years and it's gotten me nothing and nowhere. Two marriages, with kids, both gone. I gave them both all I could. My first, my…

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• It’s never enough

  July 4, 2020

  When is it ever enough? Cain killed Able, should we hate brothers? Adam and Eve populated the world, are we all a bunch of insest people? Noah only allowed his family on the ark, are we all antisocial asshats? Should the Indian and African tribes that killed other tribes give back the lands? Shou...

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• Brave face

  July 1, 2020

  2 in one day.. I hate me, I have for years. I have a vision of what I want to be and I strive to be that, but keep running into walls. I work in a retail type of industry and I have learned to fake happiness.  I pleasantly greet people with all the fake…

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• A New Kind of Sadness

  July 1, 2020

  I don't think I have ever gone this long without a new friend or relationship.  I'm not talking about the friends I made on here or Facebook, I mean a stop over for a drink, play a game, or have a date friend. I'm lonely, even with a puppy, I'm lonely. The focus is on…

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• Just the way it is

  June 19, 2020

  So I finally came to the realization that I am going to be alone for the rest of my life. Yes I can fill the time with a dog, friends on line (the ones around me have no time for me) and my boys, well until the time they don't wish to come around. Several…

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• on and on

  June 18, 2020

  I thought I finally met someone to move on from all the sorrow and pain left from Patty. Ofcourse that didn't happen and it is just more salt to the wound. Nanee,  my puppy, and the visits from my sons seam to help, but not really.  I stupidly thought they would fill the void, but…

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