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It’s never enough

July 4, 2020
When is it ever enough? Cain killed Able, should we hate brothers? Adam and Eve populated the world, are we all a bunch of insest people? Noah only allowed his family on the ark, are we all antisocial asshats? Should the Indian and African tribes that killed other tribes give back the lands? Shou...
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