Recent Entries

• Don’t want to do this

  December 11, 2024

  So another "Major" snow event is coming this way today . Possibly 3 foot of snow and I don't want to do this. I have the next 2 days off, which most normal people would be thrilled to be able to wait it out, but not me. I already dread being alone and alone I…

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• Living

  December 9, 2024

  I guess to go along with my recent posts I feel like I've lost the will to live. I'm not suicidal, but I just don't care anymore. I don't know what I bring to the boys other than not being the type of man they need. I can't enjoy the holiday with them, how it…

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• Complaining

  December 9, 2024

  I feel my post have become nothing but complaining bullshit. Maybe so. I've hit a point where " life," has just been cruel with the hits. Losing Patty just crushed me and although I put on a brave face and tried to power through the total damage hasn't shown up until years later. These last…

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• Pull

  December 8, 2024

  I have too many thoughts pulling me around right now. Can't focus and feel sick.

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• Today

  December 8, 2024

  I think I'm losing my mind today. I'm at a very homicidal point. At least I think I am. Theses lazy ass people I work with and for are killing me. I now remember why I broke this summer. I am to tied up in this job. I am driving myself mad and I just…

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• Rough

  December 7, 2024

  Oh boy today was rough and landed on a sour note. Well not quite a sour note but more annoying than anything. I can say no, but I can't. Probably why I am the way I am. They need me to spend a few Sunday at another store and that's half the reason I lost…

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• Strength

  December 7, 2024

  God please give me the strength to make it through today.. This store is such a mess, two people here for the majority of the afternoon yesterday and nothing was done. I'm in pain and can hardly move and I have to put it back together. The next 6 hours will really test me both…

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• Work!!!

  December 5, 2024

  Sitting here outside waiting on my kid at karate and ofcourse the text comes about how one of the whiners I work with can't work. With winter here the store manpower  hours were cut down causing all kinds of grief for the group of register watchers I work with. "We have bills" "We can't afford......

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• Breakfast

  December 5, 2024

  Well breakfast with kiddos went too fast. Got to figure out how to slow the moments down. Weather isn't as bad as they're making it out to be so that can mean one of two things. It will stay somewhat calm or go to shit in a hurry. So we're into winter about a week…

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