Recent Entries

• What my life has become

  September 16, 2023

  I hate what my life's become. The only thing I have to turn to is a web site. No close friends, no close family. Can't talk to my sons about my sadness. Got a job that will burn me out in about 2 weeks. No one cares. My employees see me throwing myself into saving…

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• The way it is?

  September 16, 2023

  So I now manage a 7 eleven and I have to say it sucks. Where is the work ethic? My cashier know I am stuck and take advantage of it, because no one wants to work. This past Wednesday I literally work 30 hours because of them. Now I would love to fire the lot…

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• Loneliness

  August 27, 2023

  It's funny how all these people around me tell me I don't understand loneliness when they go home to spouses, girlfriends or boyfriends, or children. I have nothing and no one to come home to. A lot of people thunk that's the best thing ever, especially the ones mentioned above. I moved back here...

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• Kinda worthless

  August 26, 2023

  My oldest is going back to college tomorrow and we are all at my sister's house.  Her and my brother in law are better parents then I ever could be. The boys are happy here, more than they have ever been with me. Days like this remind me that maybe Patty was right to leave…

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• The crowd

  August 25, 2023

  I'm sitting at the counter of a local restaurant and all the craziness of a Friday going on all around me and I've never felt more alone.

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• Her

  August 25, 2023

  It was a hard night. There I was in the dream holding her. Yet as I looked at her a saw a tattoo about him. Woke me out of a dead sleep at 2am. Been a long day.

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• Something different osteoarthritis

  August 19, 2023

  So does anyone have osteoarthritis? I believe I have it with my knees and lower legs. Lately because I am more active my leg pain has been horrible. Sharp pains that seem like my bone is on fire. Like lose your balance because your leg refuses to work or take weight. I do have bone…

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• Ugh

  August 19, 2023

  What to write when you don't know what to, but you need to vent??? When do you find the point when you don't just sob about how shitty things have become, eventhough you have no real understanding why? Oh I'm sure there's plenty I can be blamed for, but I just want to understand why…

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• Fitting in

  August 13, 2023

  From the moment she said she didn't love me anymore and that our marriage was over, I stopped fitting in. I feel like I haven't fit into work and life.  No one seems to want to approach me or talk to me. Life long friends have abandoned me, my family leaves me out of things…

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