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• The nasty hate

  May 16, 2022

  Can someone explain why a person who ended the relationship has to be so nasty? My part in it... During our marriage, I couldn't keep a job. Let me explain. I was fired once, the rest was either I was let go due to money issues in the department or like my last one, I…

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• How’s your day goin

  May 15, 2022

  Well here I sit in my truck miles away from the safety of my apartment after yet another unsuccessful date with someone. Not that I did it, but it seems like my ex sat and complained about her unhappiness and feelings and the first guy swooped in and fulfilled her life's dreams. I mention I…

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• Hope

  May 15, 2022

  There's a part of me wanting so bad to be someone new, someone different, but I'm held back by the past. By responsibilities that seem as though no one else have. Morals and ethics are supposed to be important, everyone says they are, but at the end of the day, only the person who is…

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• “SIGH”

  May 13, 2022

  Smile, though your heart is aching Smile, even though it's breaking When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by If you smile through your fear and sorrow Smile and maybe tomorrow You see the sun come shining through for you Light up your face with gladness Hide every trace of sadness Although...

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• After Midnight

  May 13, 2022

  I can't regulate right now. I'm slipping into anxiety attack mode and I'm really trying to calm myself. I hate this. Over 3 years and I am suffering just the same. Wracked with miss placed guilt over not being able to keep Patty happy enough to stay with me. Wracked with guilt that I will…

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• 5/12

  May 12, 2022

  Still feeling the same as yesterday. My son had his first chorus concert last night and I couldn't get to it. Why? Because the same shrill b$%^h who wrote me the guilt note that spared no words to say what a shit human being and shit man and father I am. Her new husband is…

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• Hate

  May 11, 2022

  I'm embracing the hate from now on. I hate people. I hate those who have turned their backs on me for their own selfish reasons. I hate those who used me and pushed me in front of a bus to improve their own lives. I hate my "friends" that have abandoned me when I needed…

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• 5/10/22

  May 10, 2022

  I feel compelled to write, but I don't have anything that I haven't said 100 times before. I'm sitting here at work listening to the one woman we work with, who just started dating a guy. He's already moved in with her and she's talking to another woman listing his faults, but also saying how&hel...

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• Me

  May 9, 2022

  I don't understand why I need to matter to someone or anyone. At the end of the day, you're only with yourself. It's physically and mentally killing me not being attached to something or someone. Why did she toss me away as she did? Why did my kids accept it so fast? Why didn't anyone…

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