Stranger

I’ve become a stranger to myself and others.

The life I used to live went on without me without missing a beat and I’ve struggled ever since.

Every day I look for positives and have so much trouble finding them. Work is all I have and it’s just draining. The different and same faces every day do nothing to chear me.

Most days I exist in a fog. I feel it. I just want it all over.

I lost all my plans and dreams and now I can’t make new ones. Nothing seems right. I worry and dwell on my kids, who all seem to have moved on with the “new” normal.

I can’t get a head financially. It’s been check by check for over 6 years.

None of my friends have come back into my life. No new one has entered, except through here, but it’s not quite the same.

So close to just giving up.

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June 3, 2025

I was just wondering how you were doing in the wee hours this morning as I lay awake unable to sleep. Thank you for checking in. Would you ever consider taking your skills to a different line of work where you would feel more valuable?

June 4, 2025

@elkay I’d love to have my old job back, but nepotism reared it’s ugly head there. I’m good at what I do, just burnt out.