It can seem futile
It can seem futile
Any endeavour
It can seem broken in purpose
And coloured by my sense of self
I can seem Sisyphean the task
But so many have completed it.
I write to show you I love you
I write to let my heart breathe and flutter her wings
Otherwise she would be couped up and a stranger
And time would pass and no one would know
Furthermore you would not know that each step I take I take with your name written on my feet 👣
Every breath I take without it whispering your name is the greatest tragedy.
I have to write to fight. I have to write to love.
I have to write to understand and keep my head above the water.
The waters are deep and repetitive
It’s their repetition that makes them dangerous
I used to feel so uncomfortable I couldn’t do this
But now I can find peace.
Isn’t that something?
There are so many worries I don’t have now I know you. My existence has been justified. My plate has been filled even though I can’t always see that clearly.
I love you so dearly. My dearest friend. My reason for living.