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idk why I’m even doing this. I need an outlet. and I miss OD.

my gf gets upset when I leave the house and argues with me for however long about it. every. time. I leave. and I haven’t been leaving the house for months. I really hate it. and gets sus about the seat in the truck and why I did this or that. it gets so old..and it’s tiring. I went to peace village and came back 2 hours after she woke up. she was alone for 2 hours. it’s not just that she was alone, but that I spent time with someone else. it’s ridiculous.

anyway there’s too much to type/post all at once. I just wanted to begin. blank spaces are bad luck.

 

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March 16, 2023

It sounds like she’s been triggered by trauma. Has she been cheated on in the past? Or abused in someway? Does she have separation anxiety for some reason? There’s usually an explanation for that type of behavior. I can understand how it’s frustrating, but you should try to find the root cause. Have a deep, real conversation with her about it.

March 16, 2023

@hannah_banana0012  yeah she was cheated on by her ex wife. so I do get the origin of it and I understand. it just sucks because I am recovering from a surgery (hysterectomy and bowel resection) and before the surgery I was very sick for months and months. so I haven’t gone anywhere or really done anything in half a year or more.

my frustration comes from the fact that the rest of the day and night is ruined. she harassed me half a night while she was working asking me about the seats in the truck, etc.

knowingly or unknowingly, her behavior makes me not want to leave the house because I know I’ll have hell to pay when I’m done. and keep in mind the friend I went to visit is in her 70’s. there is no possible romantic thing there.

(thanks for your comment. it’s good to talk about this stuff.:)

March 17, 2023

@rabbit-hole No problem! Well I hope you can have an honest conversation with her about how you’re feeling. Good luck!