Survey Says … (Cathartic Rant, I guess)

Mind your business, lol.

I was asked to complete a survey for a chance to win a $300 Visa card or some such. Of course I took the survey, but of course I also knew I am not going to win anything. That’s why I answered in Raw Thoughts style … except for the questions that weren’t anyone’s business.

Today was a trying day. Every form of income blocking, employment blocking, sabotage, and random phuckery that could have possibly happened happened today, right down to the last minute when I had to pass on $8 because it wasn’t worth another “out of my control” late mark.

I’ve learned over the past few weeks that gig work is just as much of scam as regular work. In both situations, someone else controls how much you get paid. I believe there are people out there making $1,500 a week doing what I do now. But I don’t even see quarter of that these days  because I’m on the “disallowed” list. “They” showed me this week that they could pay more if they wanted to, but they don’t. SMH.

Honestly, I believe I have an ex-employer out there that’s overly concerned about what I know. I feel like they think I have their trade secrets or something. I don’t. 

The truth is that I don’t know a damn thing about their operations because they made sure I never learned anything while I was there. They kept me in the dark about everything, and as I said before, they did everything they could so I couldn’t even succeed in the low-level job I had. They basically beat me over the head with ageism and a general “not good enough” vibe or whatever.

When I walked away, I left all that sh!t behind. The only thing I retained was the address where I was working, lol. 

So I’d appreciate it if they’d just leave me alone. I don’t have anything of theirs, and my only concern is paying my bills. I will do whatever is legally and morally acceptable to accomplish that, and I will help the underdog every chance I get because I’m an underdog myself.

I worked for two major corporations. I’m not sure if it’s Company A or Company B causing all the commotion in my life since 2021, but they’ve both taken a lot from me. I don’t care to be bothered with either one of them. I still deal with one on the consumer end, but that’s it.

They took time that I will never get back, stole my peace while I was there, and tried to mold me into a person who wasn’t me. Neither one would allow me to be myself in their establishment. One wanted me to be a workhorse robot forever, and the other wanted me to be everything but who I was.

They were not interested in my happiness, interests, or security, and they didn’t really care for my faith. I was not a person to either one of them, so I don’t care for either one of them, TBH. I also don’t care for companies that act like either one of them.

They both had a problem with the real me. They just went about showing their disapproval in different ways. Neither one is any better or any less brutish or ruthless than the other really. But one of them still has the best deals on shirts and TVs, lmao.

I will never forget the 11-year writing “business” I had going and how it was taken from me. Like I said, I’m not sure who’s responsible, but someone was. That was a low thing to do to a struggling single person, and it’s not something that can ever be smoothed over. Folks still try to do similar things to me to this day. I can forgive, but I can’t really forget.