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I woke up today and decided I was going to break up with Sin. I had watched an episode of America’s Got Talent and saw the cutest little boy that was adopted. All I could think of was that I would still have a chance to adopt if I was with a partner that was…

Roomie, oh Roomie, why do you scare all the boys away? She had ONE that visited three days last week. Three days is a record. He seemed to genuinely like her, but it seems that she may have told him something about ME that was unfavorable. I think she told him that I yell at…

Another male guest left this afternoon, and as soon as he was gone, she called up another one. Roomie is really on a roll. Apparently young married men or men that are taken are really into 50-year-old women. The revolving door here shows me that there are no longer morals existing within these w...

I came home from my mom's last night, about 10:30 pm, and roomie tells me she's having a guy over on Saturday night. She doesn't ask, she TELLS me that yet another guy is coming over to ruin my Saturday night while my dog and I huddle in our room and hope to shit we…

Often I feel like I have this never ending emotional rollercoaster. Sense of pride from work and what I’ve done so far. Feeling lonely home with no one to talk to at night (other than some friends to talk). Missing my family who are over 1,500 miles away. Missing my dad who passed 27 year…

Who am I? Other than a mom? Other than a wife? I feel so lost. So unimportant. So frozen and stuck.  I feel as if I’m floating through life. Never actually happy. Sure, I love my kids and husband, but I don’t love myself. I feel no connection to things. I’m not truly happy. I…

Does one run away or towards love? I’ve watched so many series with perfect relationships that I sometimes expect the same outcome in my love life. Trying to find the perfect person, with amazing qualities, who turn out to be just a facade before meeting their true self. This is one of the reason...

As you might’ve guessed from my last post things haven’t been going great. All totaled my dog cost me an unexpected $1260 this past week. This is the first dog I’ve owned on my own b/c in the past I’ve really gotten attached to other dogs and I knew if I had one of my…

Life was good until my parents were together we were a perfect family! My parents split 3 years ago and my dad lost all his finances due to a wrong lady . My mom will be remarrying this guy who is way to dominating just because he would give us a stable life . My…

So I haven't blogged in probably 8 or so years. I used to be an active Xanga user. I had a pretty big following on there and had friends I actually spoke to over skype sometimes. But most blogging sites seem to have disappeared. I read about this one and I decided to try it.…