we’re here to stay

i really need NOT take two weeks between entries.

currently:
reading- work purchase orders, as i write them
listening- king and lionheart, of monsters and men
watching- firefly (again)
obsession- planning my june vacation

old school breakdown of a weekend? the past is now and the future is now and time is an illusion.

friday:
andrew has restarted fallout 4, so that was what he was doing when i got home from work. when overwatch league started at like 7 we switched over to twitch to watch our good good gamer boys play against san francisco, who trounced them. those back-to-back games made for a tough week for the children and we were very sad for them. shanghai ALMOST tied florida to go to game 5 but florida pulled out a last second win on the last map and everyone was so disappointed. we just want shanghai to win one (1) game. bless them.

we ended up talking to andrew’s mom about his little brothers, who are both in school down in nc, where the South is rearing its ugly head re: racism. this dumb white kid has been throwing around the n-word at his black classmates in a very antebellum manner and keeps getting beat up about it. according to jay, the teachers aren’t really taking the slurs seriously so the kids are having to take matters into their own hands (which, i’m not a fan of fighting, but good for them). andrew’s mom is flabbergasted that this kid continues to run his mouth (she’s flabbergasted by a lot of raleigh things tbh) so andrew was like, rachel, explain white southerners to my mom please! and then we drifted off-topic to talk about her internalized racism and how she is confused that not every person wants to be a model minority. andrew did the andrew thing where he got super frustrated and tuned her out, but i think we gave her some things to think about.

saturday:
i had a super-cramp at like 2 in the morning on saturday, so i ended up sleeping in. i went to do some work while we hung out in the morning, but our nosy mischief cat had chewed through my charger cord for my mac, because he is an asshole. so i chilled out and read fic on my phone, did some dishes, domestic af stuff while andrew played fallout, and then took a long shower and shaved my legs for the first time in forever because it was nice out! after shower we went to the mall for movie night with tony and isrin. i had to make a lush run for my shampoo and conditioner and then we had to actually step foot in an apple store for a new charger (happy birthday to me) before we hit the food court for dinner and the bar in the theater for drinks. i threw a curve ball at the bartenders asking for a mint julep, but they rose to the challenge admirably, even without crushed ice. the guy, of course, tried to hand andrew my drink because apparently i don’t look like the type to order bourbon drinks.

like 10 minutes til the movie isrin showed up and expressed surprise that i would show up to watch super troopers 2 with the boys, so i had to explain that literally nothing will ever be more awkward than being the only girl in a room full of teenage boys watching borat in high school (which made him shudder and wince haha) and since i had to come to the mall anyway for the aforementioned purchases, might as well watch a dumb movie. andrew asked where tony was, since, y’know, 10 minutes to the movie- apparently he was incredibly hungover (at 7 pm!!!) and was in the food court shoving food in his face. after a minute isrin sent us into the theater, which was t i n y, and after the previews started tony and isrin joined us. there were probably maybe 15 people in the theater altogether, and i was one of 3 girls. the movie was okay. there was some amusing prop comedy, a bit where two mounties pretended not to know who danny devito was to infuriate their friend (which was honestly the funniest part of the movie), a predicable twist-counter-twist-counter-counter-twist endgame, and like 3 million references to things that were more funny than the actual movie (shoutout to the tim & eric “ridged chips” sketch in particular). after the movie we gave isrin a lot of shit for backing the kickstarter for the movie and then went and purchased tea to go and isrin and i had a conversation about the concept of a birthday tea party that, as an homage to the alice in wonderland tea party, would also be an un-birthday party, and therefore not on your birthday. he was a bit confounded about it. then we all peaced out and andrew and i went home and cuddled while he played yet more fallout.

sunday:
andrew got up early to go to work and i did my usual lazy sunday morning thing where i stay in bed and read and play dumb games™ on my phone. he brought me home some breakfast and we finished watching this 3-part video essay analysis on what the hell happened with the hobbit movies, and then i went to work, where i did like 4 things and talked to lindsey about how shitty her roommate is. just before 4 i realized that my head was definitely not in the game, so i went home and andrew took me out for thai ice cream and bubble tea, because he is the nicest. when we got back home after, i broke out my brand new charger. finished reading the tv tropes page for firefly, read some more of this old-ass fic i’ve read a million times, talked to zoe (in colorado) about her graduation coming up, and scrolled through tumblr while andrew played fallout until he got tired of it. then we put on the twitch stream with two of our philly boys duo queuing for background noise while he scrolled tumblr as well. we ended up having an abysmally late dinner, since our delivery didn’t show until after nine, and then we watched an episode of firefly while we ate. andrew went to bed just after and i cuddled with the cat and read until almost 1, which. bad call, me. but whatever. a chill weekend altogether.

we finally got word last week that our stupid property management company has agreed to move us out of our ashtray apartment into somewhere else, which my breathing is quite pleased about.
con- the apartment isn’t open until late june.
pro- that’s after we go to california, so don’t have to worry about moving, upacking, getting the cat settled, and then packing for vacation before we move, which is preferable.
con- all our clothes are going to smell like cigarettes on vacation. (sad trombone)

i’m considering taking all my old posts and putting them on private. teenage me was full of rage and frustration and swallowed it down until i was this vibrating ball of emotion with a smile pasted on and while i don’t really want that in the world anymore, it might help someone? if they can decipher the mid-aughts teenage chatspeak, that is. i don’t know. shawnie, thoughts?

anyway, tomorrow is my birthday and i don’t know how to feel about it. expect some meandering thing with no focused thesis tomorrow.

but right now, i need caffeine and mini muffins.

“my teammate boombox in a box,” “the unicorn died for eqo’s sins,” poko’s fricking FISH FLIP FLOPS <33