beryl

It’s starting to feel like too much

too much health

too much better

meant to stop doing this. Too

much feeling

like

this every day

i am so scared of intrusive thoughts and it’s difficult to tell good from bad

Maybe We’ve Gone

too far in the other direction No quiet misgivings about fluffed up dreams

Now

it

is

What I Deserve and toldyousos

I just want to not feel this very physical pain in my shoulders and neck to go with these mental battles

Bed doesn’t help. It’ll just happen

again and

a

gain my trust in myself

I do not know. I’ll just retreat further into

this hoodie