enm

the cool

crisp

of the stillness

is invigorating and the weird intrusive thoughts can finally transparent

and

tolerable

The peace here is always here

and while I can only hear

the sound of electronic and motorized white noise

I can hear and feel what I want to. I can remember anything I want.  I am the only one living in my head.

But

still

The still brings the hope that nothing can bring.

Is this a release? Is this feasible?

Or is this even an option for me?  Maybe

just maybe

I’ll know what I want instead of what I need.