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• The Kingdom of Heaven is Inside of Me

  February 7, 2025

  “Neither shall they say lo here or lo there for behold the kingdom of heaven is within you” The kingdom of God is a nonviolent, peaceful kingdom, and people can achieve this by being nonviolent and peaceful themselves. I don’t attend church anymore, or discuss the Bible with anyone anymore becaus...

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• Monday

  February 3, 2025

  Last night I watched the Grammy’s while texting an old friend in Southern Illinois. Neither had watched it in years, and didn’t know who all the performers were, but we knew some. Beyonce won the award for best country music album. I had to repeat that. Beyonce? Country Music? How long have I bee...

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• In the Year 2025

  January 8, 2025

  Anna grew up. “Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over it became a butterfly.” I bought myself a coffee cup with the above phrase on it. I bought myself a soup pot. I bought myself a ceramic coffee to-go cup. The above was Anna learning to love herself.  She also set some goals…

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• Advent Study

  December 6, 2024

  This year I decided to do an Advent study following a book by one of my spiritual teachers, Richard Rohr. He’s a Franciscan priest in the Latin Rite (Roman) Catholic Church. His order offers an “alternate orthodoxy” that has never been rejected by the Church, and helped me stay Catholic for as lo...

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• Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation

  September 19, 2024

  “During an rTMS session for depression, an electromagnetic coil is placed against the scalp of your head. This coil delivers magnetic pulses that stimulate nerve cells in the region of your brain involved in mood control and depression. It's thought to activate regions of the brain that have decr...

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• The Disrupted Plan

  September 13, 2024

  I had reached a point of despair and no hope. Everything I tried failed.  Every hope, every dream was lost.  I promised myself I did not have to live like this anymore. My plan was to stop taking my meds without telling anyone, flush them down the toilet each day so that my family would…

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• I was a child bride marrying a child groom

  September 9, 2024

  Most of our marital problems stem from the fact that we were children when we married, and so were our parents. Therapy dude tells me we fight like teenagers. He’s not wrong.  As much as I love him, my husband is judgy and a bully, but he doesn’t see it that way. He cannot change…

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• Little Tiny Jesus

  September 8, 2024

  I get my hair cut at a little redneck barber shop in a tiny town near here. A month ago while there I sat a Pegasus and a unicorn on her counter. They were tiny, as I have a recent obsession with tiny things and giving them away….brings me joy. I let her do it,…

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• Glimmers

  August 18, 2024

  I like the idea of glimmers. It’s something I read about on social media in a meme.  I collect memes the way I used to collect quotes when I was younger…. And still do, really. A glimmer is the opposite of a trigger. It’s a little moment of happiness. It can be very fleeting, lasting…

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