#90s

Getting older is so wild to me. I am 34 and I still feel like 19 years old. Still feel very uncertain about the direction my life is going. Still figuring out myself. It makes me think about people who marry or have children when they are really young, you're still so lost in your…

When I heard his voice on the other end of the phone, my stomach felt like butterflies and I honestly felt sick. He told me he was not living with his parents and his brother just happened to get the message otherwise he doubts he never would have received the message. Looking back on that…

My time away from Rusty would seem like a fast time but really it was a huge mess in my life once he was gone. My roommates changed and the new ones had become liars and thief's. I reconnected with my older brother who started becoming more and more involved in my life. I even…

I was at a loss after I broke up with Rusty. I hated how much his dad would control situations but I did not want to be blamed for them fighting all the time. Those 2 months I felt like I was really lost. I drank and did way too many drugs to numb my…

The next day after surgery I woke up and Rusty was still there. The nurses had me moving around and trying to get me to go to the bathroom, I was there an extra night because of the bathroom situation. I explained I always had a hard time going to the bathroom if I wasn't…

Yes I had a date with one of my friends who I got high with & he was there to cheer me up after Rusty just disappeared. When I explained everything to him, he told me he was still my guy and would meet me later that week. Told me to let the other guy…

After prom night, the following weekend, he called me and asked me to the movies. We met at the movie because I was working, our first movie was a movie called Spawn. It was based on a comic book that he read. This was the start of the beginning of comic books that I would…

I need to go back 30 years.  When I was 15 years of age.  My freshman year of high school.  I had a guy friend named " Tom" not really his name but I figure I can tell our story without judgment. Tom was always nice to me and would talk to me most days. …