#bipolar

It's August. It's not as hot anymore thank fuck. My emotions have been all over the place. I'm starting to think my bipolar is getting worse, maybe my tablets aren't working anymore? Maybe I should ask to up them but then they'll make me even more tired, being tired only makes me frustrated and m...

Since I forgot what day I'm on (There's a long gap between each entry) I'm just gonna start with random titles. Not that anyone reads these. Things have been....weird. Thats the best way to describe it. The sudden want to talk to me, from cosmic soul. We message every day now. I mean dont get&hel...

I think I need to change the titles to each day. My memory is shocking that apparently I can't even remember single digits now. This last week and weekend have been like a nail in my head. I feel like a awful mother. My temper is at the edge all the time and I'm snapping…

Day six....seven? Who knows It's another bloody heat wave. It's the UK! We don't do heat, our country gonna explode in a firey blaze. Boom! This week has been hard, a friend was giving me a hard time about something trivial. Told them to calm the fuck down or we won't be friends anymore. Cba…

So last one I thought was day Three. But it was actually day four. So this should be day five.....should be! Ok so an interesting development about cosmic soul. Normally like I've said they're kinda blase. I'm not sure I've spelt that right. I've googled it in but if I can't spell it how am…

Day two It's morning. I've been up since 5ish. It's so humid it feels like you're wearing a thick coat constantly, ski s grey though so maybe it'll rain? I'm always up at 5ish. I have a child with special needs, they're an early riser. I love them so bloody much but some days are…

The first day It's the middle of June. We're stuck in a disgusting heat wave. My bipolar is kicking my arse, the darkness seems never ending, sometimes I find a light but there is none at the moment. Even with all this sun, I see no sunshine.   I'm hoping this journal will help my…

It's just one of those days where you don't know left from right or up from down. I'm struggling with so many things, yet it doesn't seem like much. Everybody tells me I am doing such a good job, yet I get no freedom. I'm living under a constant watchful eye who criticizes and never…

Ugh, I'm so depressed. When I feel this way, it feels like it's going to last forever, even if I am only feeling it for a few minutes. I'm off my anti-depressants. I've been bobbing around from one prescription to another, each having its own set of side problems, the latest being an issue with&h...

7:25am  Clarence is watching cartoons right now. I don't know why but when Dan left for work today I was a little relieved. We don't have any issues i'm not mad at him or anything.    8:39am   Im having pretzel pieces for breakfast. We're running really low on food again. We never have enoug...