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Thanksgiving without her was different. I want to forgive her for what she's done but i cant get over that she's done this before and she will again. I want to do whats right for my kids, i think they are taking it well (on the outside) however on the inside i know they are…

I think writing a couple of things to show where i am emotionally on this roller coaster of the process to end a 17 yr old marriage (that i thought was a happy one)  after a couple of cheating episodes helps me cope with the situation. I keep telling myself, this too will pass.... things…

Today its been 7 days since found out that She once again Cheated on me. I've been dealing with trust issues with her since the last time (about 4 yrs ago). My thoughts are confused i think i am getting used to her doing this and somehow i just dont care as much. I feel…

My head's a jumbled mess.  I start the drive to Colorado one week from tomorrow, and I had my final couple's counseling appointment with Chris yesterday morning.  It was strange seeing him after two months apart.  The appointment itself was just awkward.  I was hoping that seeing his face would m...

Today was Olivia's going away party, so I've been down in Alexandria since about noon.  After the shindig, I headed back over to Rob's with them for some coffee and playtime with his pups.  While I was there, Chris unexpectedly called.  I debated on answering it, but given I was with my brother, ...

Today is Thursday and our Thursdays are now visitation days as opposed to our Saturdays. I usually dread them but now they're becoming our new normal,rapidly. It happened for me sooner on some things than others, but this one feels like the last big one for awhile. When we get to HippeKid's first...

Spewing of random ahead.... be prepared. According to my calculations, I need to make a minimum of $17 dollars an hour to cover all expenses and bills, adding a car payment, insurance, gas, and cell phone. What in the actual fuck. Do you know how much they're out here trying to pay people with de...

Three weeks ago, my husband of nearly 10 years,left. It was a shock but not a surprise. Truth be told, we should have never been a permanent thing, let alone last as long as we did. I am doing well, though overwhelmed as more and more things come to my attention that I need to…

Oh Diary, how I have missed you.  Oh, there were attempts to keep in touch, apps, books, notes, blogs.... but no one I loved as much as you.  No one who I wanted to talk to as much.  Silly, probably, but hey, when you tell someone your secrets, even if you erase some so no…

I have been Mrs. G. for nearly four years. It's good to be back on Open Diary. I have to change my name, though. SO much has changed, as I'm sure it did for many of you in the past five years, who find yourself returning to the haven that was your online journal. I…