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October 30, 2023 It was December 2022.  Everything went like a blur, Thanksgiving was over, then baby came, and somehow Christmas and New Year's passed during the lack of sleep, and in spite of not going to school for six weeks, I have no idea how we got through those hours, days and weeks, but&h...

This is a fresh new start. A new diary; one where I am not looking for anyone that I know or knew from here. I need this place for myself. A place that people in my home cannot just pick up and read as they can do with my physical journal. I bottled up writing…

It’s hard to shine. Not because you don’t want to. Not because you weren’t inherently born for something beautifully unique yet mundane. Rather because you have been living in shadows for so long you have forgotten how to open your eyes. Dark corners and blurred edges line your life. And now cris...

Sheets that smell of you, of us. Our midnight musings and sexy secrets hidden under covers. Our lacivious dance by candlelight awakens the night. You are Eros incarnate. Your aim is true and your assail lethal. The attack on my heart results in a cloying wantonness. Beguiling. Stormy eyes and fir...

I'm single, I'm sick of being single, I need a girl of any kind

As the mother and wife in this house there will never be a Birthday party that I didn’t plan and execute. There will never be a Birthday party that I ever truly get to celebrate as I’m too busy ensuring everyone else’s happiness. There will never be a family vacation or weekend trip that I…

Lonely is a complicated word. You could be absolutely surrounded by people at work, or at home and still feel so disconnected. And that's how I felt. I felt disconnected from my husband. I decided if we couldn't connect on a healthy level then I'm going to find someone to connect with. I was very...

The story I will be sharing is one filled with shame and regret. It's also a story of love and sacrifice. This is my story, a tale of events that have transpired woefully, in and out of my favor for the last 3 years. Summer of 2019. I was accepted into a nursing program. Well,…

A good tree produces good fruit, and a bad tree produces bad fruit. 7 days away from the 17th and I will no longer be legally married. I have not been married in my heart ever really. I have always been a wife but never really had a husband. That is my perspective anyway. A…

I have seen many therapist over the past few years. Did you know you can fall in love with your therapist? I must’ve been absent the day they taught that in college. I had to learn that one on my own. That’s what happens when you are not paying attention. Shit just happens. Don’t avoid…