#mentalhealth

It feels like spiders have infested my mind and are clawing their way out as I stand by helplessly. Everything has been bothering me. The lack of work, having to cook or clean, needing to converse with friends to avoid losing a connection.. My sickly boyfriend coughing on me. I started therapy ho...

I'd like to write daily but sometimes I have so much in my mind if I were to write it down it wouldn't make any sense. I did my second therapy session yesterday. I went into it as my true authentic low energy self. The first session I put on so many fake smiles and…

I'm so depressed lately and I don't even know why. I used to write on here, but I stopped when my husband found my account. It's been several years now & I...just need an outlet. I can't talk to anyone in my family. They just blow me off, make it seem like I'm seeking attention.…

Well, here goes. For three days I've been wondering where to start. Perfectionist syndrome. Screw it. I just need to start getting stuff out. So here it goes, just bloody well start writing. I want to keep a journal to track my progress with micro dosing. I'm going to try two medicines. Psilocybi...

I'm starting new here, since I can't seem to remember my email / username from years ago. I guess that is what the Chiari does to my brain. Oh well, we all need a fresh start at some point, right? This will probably be a ramble, considering so much shit is going on in my…

There are some things worth experiencing only once and that is love. Beyond the many stories to tell, your first won't always be your last. You'll keep creating stories as you keep loving. Stories to cry, rejoice, to feel like you've lived and died to be resurrected, that's love. A million things...

If I am completely honest with my self this isn’t  the first time I have had the urge to cut my self. No not to kill my self just a little cut to feel anything other than what I feel. In the past I have had the thought in passing but pushed it away. I…

Every year on the 3rd of July, I'd get together with my parents and siblings for the last several years. The locations changed a bit, but we'd at least see the early fireworks show in their community. It wasn't always fun, particularly when my daughter was just a tot. Now she's a teen with her&he...

First entry. New too this. But here we go. In November,  I had laparoscopic surgery. For those who don’t know, laparoscopic surgery is a type of surgery that checks for problems in the abdomen or a woman's reproductive system. Laparoscopy helps diagnose and treat problems in the reproductive orga...

I’ve been in a pretty good flow over the last month with exercise, healthy eating, personal hygiene, etc. I do well with routines until something happens to knock me out of it and then things just fall apart, well, I let things fall apart. This morning I had a meeting that was supposed to happen&...