#mentalhealth

I figured that maybe an online diary would be something good for my mental health. Something private, where no one knows it's me...but also there for others to read and comment on, in case they might have an unsolicited opinion about my life. Also, I'm finding that I have no other outlet at the m...

I feel like I have lost all love or drive for anything in my life. If I ever do anything, it's because I have to. I can't figure out anything I'm truly interested in, and I have zero direction as to what to do with my life. I have completely lost my love for things…

Tomorrow I will be putting in my resignation notice. This moment has crossed my mind countless times over the past couple of months. What began in August 2020 as a fun, full-time work-from-home opportunity that allowed me to help others improve their lives has morphed into an unfulfilling, exhaus...

I never really know what to title these entries. Originally it was going to be "the back story" but then i don't feel like i want to go back and re-write all of it. I'm kind of sick of writing about him, thinking about everything thats happened, feeling stuck. I think yesterday was the last…

After our semi-exciting drive on the Icy roads in the ghetto, we semi-drift into my sister’s HUD home. I look into his dreamy eyes and feel an extrinsic amount of love and admiration for him. I feel obsessed. I express to him how much I love him and he looks me dead in the eyes…

I am so tired of being tired of being tired. I feel like if the sentence above makes sense to you then you get the kind of tiredness, fatigue and exhaustion I’m referring to. It’s the kind that comes from the brain, not the body. I feel like even standing up is taxing because it’s…

I spent the entire day thinking I was having a heart attack. I am someone who suffers from a variety of mental health issues. My journey goes something like this: I began becoming afraid of things I was previously not afraid of; the biggest example being flying. I was prescribed some medication t...

Tomorrow...does it have to come? Whether for the better or the worse, yes...for many people. This is the first time I've posted to OD in a long time.  Basically, this year has been a very shitful one for me for these reasons: One long-time friend I've had since 2011 suddenly turning against me an...

Drug users make a choice. They choose to take the drugs, so it’s their fault they are addicted. It’s their fault they are homeless and have no one around there for them. BUT… Some drug users if not ALL, struggle with some sort of health condition. Physical or Mental. Ever ask someone why they use...

It feels like spiders have infested my mind and are clawing their way out as I stand by helplessly. Everything has been bothering me. The lack of work, having to cook or clean, needing to converse with friends to avoid losing a connection.. My sickly boyfriend coughing on me. I started therapy ho...