#mentalhealth

Mental health office called again. Pushing me to find another doctor. It just reassures how I feel unwanted and too much of a "hassle" to deal with. Yesterday was his court date, I haven't heard back from the DA office on what happened. I can sit here and say I don't care but I do.…

His body was heavy on me, sweating on my skin, moaning in my ear. The ceiling is white with weird shapes like the ones all old townhouses have. The air coming from the window is blowing at the tapestries on the wall. Has he finished yet?  I told you NO. I told you I don’t…

So I'm a bit new here. I'm fairly old, 37, and my life is kind of a wreck. I've been making money writing and doing odd jobs and I've recently found some success on TikTok. However, I'm really emotionally struggling recently. I never get good sleep. I wake up with a sinking feeling in my…

That’s so true! Sleep is for the peaceful mind. The wicked never sleep! WHELP, that’s because our brains never shut the fuck up. Here is a rendition of my bedtime… oh I’m sleepy let me lay down… oh let’s cuddle… well this is boring and I hate this show so let me roll over because…

I figured that maybe an online diary would be something good for my mental health. Something private, where no one knows it's me...but also there for others to read and comment on, in case they might have an unsolicited opinion about my life. Also, I'm finding that I have no other outlet at the m...

I feel like I have lost all love or drive for anything in my life. If I ever do anything, it's because I have to. I can't figure out anything I'm truly interested in, and I have zero direction as to what to do with my life. I have completely lost my love for things…

I never really know what to title these entries. Originally it was going to be "the back story" but then i don't feel like i want to go back and re-write all of it. I'm kind of sick of writing about him, thinking about everything thats happened, feeling stuck. I think yesterday was the last…

After our semi-exciting drive on the Icy roads in the ghetto, we semi-drift into my sister’s HUD home. I look into his dreamy eyes and feel an extrinsic amount of love and admiration for him. I feel obsessed. I express to him how much I love him and he looks me dead in the eyes…

I am so tired of being tired of being tired. I feel like if the sentence above makes sense to you then you get the kind of tiredness, fatigue and exhaustion I’m referring to. It’s the kind that comes from the brain, not the body. I feel like even standing up is taxing because it’s…

I spent the entire day thinking I was having a heart attack. I am someone who suffers from a variety of mental health issues. My journey goes something like this: I began becoming afraid of things I was previously not afraid of; the biggest example being flying. I was prescribed some medication t...