Sometimes

I think that am horribly depressed.

All I want to do is sleep.  My body feels heavy.  My heart is heavy.  I cry.

I have been depressed in the past, but its not a chronic condition for me the way it is for a lot of people in my life. But still, it feels awful.

There are a lot of people in my life right now that are going through the same.  Actually, its hard to come up with the name of any of my people that are not depressed right now.  That is scary.

Provable in my past, March, April & May are usually the worst months for me every year.  Money is always an issue, I disconnect from people, etc.   Also, usually every three months everything changes.  I  am just ready for this shit to change.  This is the darkest i have gone in a few years.

Most of this is stemming from work / lack of money.

Ill figure it out i guess.  I dont have the energy to type any more about it.