Back from Rehab n Such…
I went to rehab on Jan 29th. I came back yesterday, and the thing is, while I do feel changed and I learned a lot… I came home to my very gorgeous lonely wife, and my waiting meth. It was my idea, in the damn rehab center, to get it. And since we are so weak even 400 miles apart, we caved. But you know what? I don’t feel bad. What I learned and gained in rehab was exactly what I needed and what I went there for. I learned that I need to love myself, forgive myself and just go easy on myself. Was it bad to make a drug order from rehab? Possibly. But I am 39 years old with the brain of a damn 12 year old. My wife needs intensive therapy before she can even go into the grocery store again. I have MS that is progressing faster than it should and dammit we deserve to take a few years… to just say fuck. it. And while I am no longer sober now… I was for almost 3 weeks. I drew myself a nice, well rounded road map to get back.
Anyway… so yeah.. I am gonna be writing a lot more for just myself in the future, but for now I like it here, it feels like home. It may be a totally revamped 2021 home, but I’ll take it.
So, my daughter dawgy Kya was put to sleep right before I went to rehab, maybe a few days I’m not sure. She was 12, and for a large breed dog that’s old. BUT my wife and I do not believe it was her time. I know it wasn’t. But because she was not in great health and elderly, she ended up having an adverse reaction to the new flea medicine Credelio. Please, if you have an elderly or unhealthy dog… DO NOT buy this medicine! It is what they used to replace Comfortis. It attacks the fleas neurologically and therefore its major side effects can be the same in the dog. She went through excruciating pain whereby she was, in the end, groaning and crying out for hours as we watched, helpless because no vets were open yet here. We had to literally drown her out for our own sanity, we were completely helpless and could not bear to hear her anymore. Please, no judgement here, she was incredibly loved and this started at 4 in the morning the night before, and progressed slowly at first. In the end she was having new symptoms hourly it seemed.
Kya Marie Morgan
Aug 31st, 2008 – Jan 21st, 2021
rip baby, Mama’s love you…. we miss you.
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