death – Open Diary

Ashes Part III, (Melissa’s Funeral)

Beauty For Ashes

3 days ago

This is a repost, in part to introduce myself, in part to also find myself back in a place where i am ready to share with strangers again. This post was originally posted almost 10 years ago, it is all me, I have grown in lots of ways and here like nowhere else have I…

Ashes Part II, (that awful taste in your mouth!)

Beauty For Ashes

3 days ago

This post, the previous post and the one following are pulled from met very first posts on this platform. I am posting them here as a reset and also a welcome mat to all who care to read. I don't intend to rehash all these things in detail but at least it is an intro…

Your journey to die

Anaphylactic$hock

February 24, 2019

I honestly can't remember when you were born, I just remember wanting to be an only child. From a young age I wanted all the attention I could get, and there you were all new and shiny stealing my mothers time. What I maybe lacked to see as a bestfriend, was a sibling that I…

Death is only a tear in the fabric away.

Anaphylactic$hock

January 26, 2019

I woke up at 5 am, turned over in bed to see Patrick facing me with his mouth wide open and a piece of dip sitting under his tongue, and on the roof of the spit bottle still half-fallen over in his hand. The most unattractive time in Pat's life is his slumbers. I wish…

Heroin kidnapped my little sister and best friend last week.

Anaphylactic$hock

November 28, 2018

I recently wrote about grief, and the last few months have slowly brought me to a life of extreme anxiety and depression. I spent months, up all night after work wondering if I was going to die out of no where, what I would do if I lost someone else, and basically swimming in my…

Feeling spooky

carttboy

July 24, 2018

See no evil Hear no evil Say no evil No But dark things lurk In my mind Beware You won’t see or hear it And I’ll say nothing. Actions speaking louder See no evil Hear no evil Say no evil No Crypts will keep And the sea claims Even winter holds its own Let the…

Today Was Not A Good Day

MaeKhaleesi

April 21, 2018

My coworker's boyfriend passed away today. He'd been sick, wound up being pneumonia, but we never expected this. She called out so she could deal with him yesterday and then she left almost as soon as she got in today. From what I understand, he had a lot of blood clots in his lungs. They…

So… He’s dead and I’m alone…

DiddleMe85

April 9, 2018

So, My Guy flipped our car off a bridge and landed upside down in a creek and drowned. They couldnt get him out of the water. It was cold and at first they said that helped. ... Maybe it did. It took twenty minutes for them to get him out of the water and get…

Bit not good. Yeah.

Constant Flux

April 3, 2018

Not to be all sad and dramatic, but I find it hard to be sad and dramatic in my real life, so guess what? That means I get to pour it all out here. My son is dead. One month ago yesterday he committed suicide. He was 18. I honestly don't know what to do…

Out of time…

Mike Atari

March 27, 2018

I wrote about our cat, Kooshie, here and here. In that second "here" I mentioned how we scheduled Kooshie's euthanasia appointment, but canceled after he started looking like he still had some life left in him. Unfortunately, Kooshie got worse again... Last week we noticed he was not so good on h...