death – Open Diary

Lola

TheFatDogWarrior

3 weeks ago

Today. August 31st 3:30pm. My dog of 11 or 12 years had passed away today. I don’t feel like I’m alive. I feel as if I had just scooped my organs out and left them to rot in space. I feel sad, angry, anxious, guilty, exhausted and scared. She ended up dying a very slow…

Ghosts in the Room…

Miss Sammy Joe

June 27, 2023

There are 3 ghosts in my room, one is a Victorian older lady, the other is a little girl, also Victorian, and more recently (within the last 70 years, methinks?) a girl who drowned in a pool we had. Ry was doing some maintenance in Gabby's room and he unearthed pool tiles... so.... ya. I…

The paths we used to walk

Zee

March 28, 2023

I am crying uncontrollably. Sitting outside, on a park bench. On a bench, we used to sat, in a park, where we used to walk, in a city where we used to live, in a country we decided to move together in 2016. Passing by a house we used to live in. A house where…

Life is changing

Zee

March 20, 2023

So... Today is the first day of the rest of my life cliché. But, let me try get into that mindset. Just finished Tony Robbins UPW 23 and although I don't think it did A LOT for me. I'll keep trying to find the benefit and try to change. The idea is to journal about…

Music royalty, headaches and yes, it’s 3a!

❄️ Winter Pear ❄️

January 13, 2023

aIt's sad to report that Lisa Marie Presley is dead. She was so young too. :-( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C-Naa1HXeDQ I always post this video if I'm awake at the time. Sort snarkish but what the hey? I'm snarky... deal with it. I have a headache that I want to shake, I will eventually. My ...

Sibling Loss

KmeD

December 8, 2022

My sister died today. I always knew this day would come as she struggled with addiction for as long as I can remember. Guilt sets in as I’ve lived a better life, had it easier, was the baby and our dads favorite. (Same dad different moms). When I received the news I cried out as…

probably autistic. im back

onelonelyraven

November 12, 2022

so.. it's been ages. i've been on here before. then i left. lots of drama. but it's better now. lots of crazy stuff. im agoraphobic. ive been that way since 16. i have bad anxiety and i think im autistic. i lived with my mother for some time as i went through a divorce and…

Sad news

Witchy Sambuca

November 6, 2022

Aaron Carter, younger brother to Nick the Backstreet Boy, has died. I remember when he was just a wee thing, with the same haircut as his brother. It seems as if he drowned in his bathtub, but I bet you dollars to donuts, it was drug related. Had to be... unless it was a suicide...…

Unmedicated, but not completely unmotivated…

Heaven's Sake

October 18, 2022

Ugh, I'm so depressed. When I feel this way, it feels like it's going to last forever, even if I am only feeling it for a few minutes. I'm off my anti-depressants. I've been bobbing around from one prescription to another, each having its own set of side problems, the latest being an issue with&h...

Did you see him?

Vane

October 17, 2022

Searching for a window into my brothers life before he passed away through open diaries (RemigioP) that he had. Learned about it from his ex-fiance who kept in touch with him. Saw the death coming due to his lifestyle not having changed for the better. Such an odd thing to think someone you once ...