Often I feel like I have this never ending emotional rollercoaster. Sense of pride from work and what I’ve done so far. Feeling lonely home with no one to talk to at night (other than some friends to talk). Missing my family who are over 1,500 miles away. Missing my dad who passed 27 year ago. Sense of not know what else to do in life. Sometimes even sense of not belonging on a right place or path.
I know I’ll be fine. I know I’ll find the right path. Even going through this dry desert where no one is around and seems everlasting.
I have to do something else. I did start a new health path which has brought me so much happiness with myself. I want more. I need more.
It’s just those days where you see, hear, feel the moment that makes me angry to not have a clear path anymore.
I promise to be better with myself, am I on a good path. I will work on being a better role model for other to follow. I just need these emotional rollercoaster to stop.