#emotional

SAY IT WITH ME! I am powerful potential I am powerful potential I am powerful potential Repeat until you believe it.

So I bought a funny thing yesterday, and it's a huge one. Now, the name's really simple- it's just a joke, but it means something to me. I think I'll stay home until Christmas. But this is kind of the first of our life right now.. and there's kids waiting for me. It's not like…

When I was in high school I used to lay in my driveway and cry. I would just stare out at the night sky and cry. When I was twenty I would stand in front of the fridge and just scream into until I was crying, I would close the door and slide down it…

Often I feel like I have this never ending emotional rollercoaster. Sense of pride from work and what I’ve done so far. Feeling lonely home with no one to talk to at night (other than some friends to talk). Missing my family who are over 1,500 miles away. Missing my dad who passed 27 year…

Hey you, Of course i had to dream about you yesterday -.- what a shocker. Maybe because i was so invested in this "Open Diary- writing letters to my ex boyfriend" that my brain could just not stop thinking about you haha. I just hope that this isn't a phase where i dream about you…

http://www.mirakee.com/posts/qqr_ptug-w It's not something I'm going to hide anymore.  Life is probably the most challenging thing to feel positive towards when there is so much evil. I mean, I have everything I need and by all means I should be grateful. I am. Some weeks , however, are more diff...

I don't know why I'm so anxious about medication and  my body. I'm somewhat educated on disease processes and symptoms of them. I keep lying down and feeling short of breath, I am so depressed that I honestly can only tell you I know that by my (non satisfiable) feeling. I continuously search for...

I loved you when you first kissed me, in a hospital 80 miles away. You rubbed the space between my fingers, In my mind you would stay. I loved you, patrick, when our bodies connected in a halfway house 60 miles away you touched my body and my spirit In the depths of my soul…

It's been years since I've written. Part of me is excited to have open diary back! Its been my go to.. My outlet. Meeting unbiased friends ..God knows alpt has been going on in my life .I need to let it all out ..here. Is a good start .

I had this whole elaborate meaningful schpeel I wanted my first entry to have, but fuck it. Too much effort, not enough actual writing. Couldn't remember my old OD name that I had since '04. Mackerelsophist-something, or peachxchampagne, eh, close enough. I don't remember where I was the last tim...