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What’s something you’ve moved on from that once meant the world to you?

One of my best friends.

Don’t know if he loved me as much as I loved him.

I would have done anything for that person.

I threw a kid in the ditch, when we were in middle school, when this kid called my friend a “faggot”.  (He didn’t know I did that…I didn’t want it to hurt him).

I stood up against my abusive step father for the first time because of him.

I was his “ride or die” girl.  I would have done anything and everything for him.

We were so similar in many ways and we mirrored each other in certain ways…except, I considered him the better half of my reflection.

He has always meant the world to me.  That will never change.  I just live differently, now.  I have gone on to marry someone else and have a family with that person.  I don’t like the situation with my husband always upset, but I do love him.  Wish it wasn’t so complicated…

Sometimes, I’ll look back, and think and wish how things could have been different.  But if it were, I would have never had my beautiful children.  I love my children.  They are my world, now.

My old friend is married now, like me, with a beautiful family.  He seems happy and I am so happy for him.

We’ve moved on and it’s over.  He will always have a special place in my heart…and I don’t want to get in the way of  his happiness.

Sometimes you love someone so much, you just have to let them go.

 

 

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4 weeks ago

That was beautifully said. 

2 weeks ago

@mamaqueenie518 thank you 💖

4 weeks ago

I love your entry and you are so right, sometimes when you really love someone, you have to let them go.  🌸

2 weeks ago

@wildrose_2 absolutely… it’s painful , yet necessary.

4 weeks ago

Yes.  And good for you.  💝

2 weeks ago

@oniongirl  💖

3 weeks ago

Beautiful entry and I can relate all too well. Certain people never leave your heart.

2 weeks ago

@socialphobic yes…certain people NEVER leave.  I’ve tried and found it impossible.  💖

3 weeks ago

Your kids are like the point of no true regret… but there’s no harm in contemplating a life that took a different turn. Though the history won’t be there, find some happiness in the thought there would be other good men like him out there who would have room for you.

2 weeks ago

@messupit I actually fantasize a lot with what “could have” been.  I often wonder what would have happened if I took a different turn.  I know my friend would have made me the happiest person in the world…

…I am glad, though, that he is doing it for someone else. 💖