#TOTW80

“What’s something you’ve moved on from that once meant the world to you?”

One of my best friends.

Don’t know if he loved me as much as I loved him.

I would have done anything for that person.

I threw a kid in the ditch, when we were in middle school, when this kid called my friend a “faggot”.  (He didn’t know I did that…I didn’t want it to hurt him).

I stood up against my abusive step father for the first time because of him.

I was his “ride or die” girl.  I would have done anything and everything for him.

We were so similar in many ways and we mirrored each other in certain ways…except, I considered him the better half of my reflection.

He has always meant the world to me.  That will never change.  I just live differently, now.  I have gone on to marry someone else and have a family with that person.  I don’t like the situation with my husband always upset, but I do love him.  Wish it wasn’t so complicated…

Sometimes, I’ll look back, and think and wish how things could have been different.  But if it were, I would have never had my beautiful children.  I love my children.  They are my world, now.

My old friend is married now, like me, with a beautiful family.  He seems happy and I am so happy for him.

We’ve moved on and it’s over.  He will always have a special place in my heart…and I don’t want to get in the way of  his happiness.

Sometimes you love someone so much, you just have to let them go.