My diary has been here since 2005. I have always used it to reflect and process. Writing has been the best therapist for me, though I have actually had some excellent therapists, as well. I took a 12-year break and recently began using it as a launch pad for writing a memoir.

Until 6/23/2019, I was OnionGirl. See entry of the same date for why the change.
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  • MADness
    March 1, 2022
    My biggest fear as a kid was always the idea of World War III and nuclear annihilation. I remember sitting on the floor in the living room when my parents were watching the news. I heard about “nuclear missiles,” and I asked what that was. Mom hesitated, but I persisted and she finally told me&he...
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  • Thanksgiven.
    November 27, 2021
    I’m happy to report that the first holiday gathering without our dad was a huge success. My one concern would be my mom’s drinking. She drank beer, but never to the point of slurred speech, which has been my trigger since age 10. So she was not at all altered. I got to swing my…
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  • Thanksdreading.
    November 25, 2021
    My mom and siblings are gathering for the first holiday since we lost our dad. I’ve been really looking forward to it, but last night I asked Mom if there was anything that she wanted, and she asked me to bring a bottle of wine. My parents were drunk through most of my teen years.…
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  • Rainbows and Butterflies
    August 25, 2021
    The morning after that awful night, Drew was much more of the man I love.  He is no longer on the morphine, and, when he's lucid, he's showering me with love and affection. Our landlord took us to court claiming that we owed rent for July and August.  We didn't, and I proved it, today. …
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  • Shattered
    August 16, 2021
    Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. My fiancé, with whom I’ve had the most amazing relationship ever for more than six years now, overdosed on his pain medication. He’s home, now, but I am all but shattered. He has cancer in the back of his mouth, and he can’t swallow. They’re…
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  • Coming Apart
    June 27, 2021
    1/12/2021 - Total Hysterectomy 1/16/2021 - 50th birthday 1/19/2021 - Sepsis 3/11/2021 - Future Step-Daughter robbed at work and assaulted (minor physical injuries) 3/21/2021 - My Princess Crazy Pants passed away suddenly. 6/3/2021 - My dad passes away suddenly 6/19/2021 - Landlord shows up at our...
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  • In Threes
    June 4, 2021
    My mom swears that bad things come in threes.  I know people can always come up with examples of it, but I can usually debunk it with a little research. That said, there have been three painful deaths in my life over the past 11 months.  The first was the loss of my dog, Chunk. …
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  • The Passage of Time
    May 6, 2021
    The entity with which I am currently wrestling is the passage of time. I would swear that I just graduated from college, but then my sister would not have yet married her husband or borne any of her three beautiful children, one of which will be graduating high school, this year. It seems like th...
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  • Asset 6
    More Examples of Ongoing Oppression (Reparations Cont’d)
    March 26, 2021
    79 days ago capitol police stood by and watched as a mob of Trump-inspired supporters attempted to overturn Trump's crushing defeat in the 2020 United States presidential election by disrupting the joint session of Congress assembled to count electoral votes to formalize Joe Biden's victory. Yest...
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