I've wanted to write a memoir for a long time. I've found that writing in chronological order is frustrating. So these are a collection of memories and events.
I want to make it clear, though, that I consider myself an emotionally healthy person. Through writing and therapy, I have worked through these things. My family has healed together.
I share my stories in the hopes that there are others who can relate.

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Cacophony

April 12, 2019
This was a Facebook post from 4/12/2015 On most days, there are at least twenty television sets playing twenty different channels simultaneously in my head. Some play back sweet memories from my life. They are grainy and sepia-toned, but they are warm and comforting, and I like to stand and watch...
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    When my ex-husband committed suicide, just three months after our divorce was final, I immediately felt guilty.  Well-meaning people told me that it wasn't my fault, and I told them that I knew that, but I still believed that if we hadn't split up, he'd still be alive. I can't recall ever talking...
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  • Daddy Issues
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    I've written about my issues with my biological father, before.  Tonight, I wrote to a married couple who are two of my closest friends and whose advice I trust always comes from the best place.  Here is the letter: Dear Tiberius and Gloriana, I have a conundrum, and you are among the few people ...
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  • National Poetry Month – Day 1
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    The first lyrics I remember composing was a song I wanted to write when I was in 4th grade.  I thought that if you could write any song it would get on the radio and we'd be rich!  I always loved creative writing.  I always got great feedback on work I submitted for grades or…
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  • When Abuse Doesn’t Feel Like Abuse
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  • Politics and Lent
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    Having a year to sit and reflect on the daily news and controversies, I have begun to notice an ugliness creeping up inside of me.  I don't like that I've been getting a bit of a high from arguing with people and taking pride in my ability to articulate contradictions and ironies. One of my…
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  • Sitting Here
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    Sometimes when I'm trying to organize my various thumb drives and cloud drives, I stumble across something I'd written and forgotten about.  This is one of those: Sitting Here 5/22/2012 I’m sitting here proctoring the last final exam of my teaching career at the school for which I’ve worked the p...
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  • TOTW- A Joyful Moment
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    Many years ago, I had the opportunity to travel to Germany and stay with a friend’s mom.  It was during my relationship with Ben.  We made arrangements that during our visit, we would take a train to Florence, and spend a few days in Italy.  The day that we were supposed to leave for Florence,&he...
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  • Fat and Happy 😃
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    This was a response to a comment on Facebook.  I liked what it turned into, so I decided to share it here: I have always had body issues, for reasons too many to list.  A few things have cured me of that (mostly): 1)  After I realized that I deserved to be happy, I divorced…
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