I am a wife and a mother. I am a dreamer. I live with BPD every day and this will be a big part of getting things out of my head along with tidbits about my amazing family. I am also a ghostwriter as well as having an office job.
I am so happy to be back here again. Thank you, Diarymaster!!

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Time Passes

July 8, 2018
I remember being so happy that this site was back up. I was going to come here and log my feelings that I bury deep down and get through my days. I am just so bad at that. Things are collapsing around me. I have been working so hard for the last four or so…
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Recent Entries

  • It’s 2018
    February 25, 2018
    It was my niece's third birthday party today. there were a handful of toddlers, older girls that were my daughter's age and family and friends. It was a cute party and it made me think back to K's when she was little. My BIL and SIL are the type to shelter their kids a bit.…
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  • For a night, I was a goddess
    February 24, 2018
    I have tried a lot of traditional therapy. I like group better than individual. I bottle things up and have never been into spilling my guts in the office. When I have, I did get sent to a class or outpatient where I did get deep. I loved it. Since then, I just haven't enjoyed…
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  • For a night, I was a goddess
    February 24, 2018
    I have tried a lot of traditional therapy. I like group better than individual. I bottle things up and have never been into spilling my guts in the office. When I have, I did get sent to a class or outpatient where I did get deep. I loved it. Since then, I just haven't enjoyed…
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  • In an Instant
    February 17, 2018
    I was driving home last night from work, planning ahead for the evening. I was going to go and watch my niece play basketball and work. It had been a long week with the allergies that come from this beautiful weather and I needed a little R&R time. I love my drive home. It is…
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  • The World
    February 16, 2018
    I don't know what to say about the shooting in Florida. Part of me wants to keep my daughter in a bubble for the rest of her life but that's impossible. I am not that parent but I also don't have any answers as to how to fix this. I just want it to stop.…
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  • Not Young Any More
    February 14, 2018
    I am a fool. I had an amazing meeting with my client yesterday. I am terrified to write her speech but I respect a person that's been through shit and grown from it. She certainly has. She was incredibly positive and into all that kind of healing I am fascinated with. I think it's funny…
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  • No Friends
    February 12, 2018
    I work a lot. I am working late tonight because I took a night off Friday. An author friend was coming in town for a book signing and we agreed to meet up for that. I have only met her once before but I like her and her husband a lot. We went out to…
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  • In the dark
    February 5, 2018
    There is a large part of me that wants to stop taking my meds for the anxiety and depression. Before I did, I could sink into darkness and not remember what was happening around me. I want that again... to not be aware of my failures and responsibilities. I screwed up a lot back then…
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  • Home
    February 3, 2018
    I am so glad to be back here. I realized that I missed this platform over the last few weeks. While I liked Livejournal and met a lot of great people there, OD was the original place for me. I have a friend that quit Facebook for a while. I have had a love/hate relationship…
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