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• Going back to Cali

  April 13, 2011

  I leave for a two week trip to California. I had to put Aethena down yesterday. I've had her since I was 17, 17 years ago. She was 18 years old. I feel guilty. She was sick and due to her age she was going down hill fast, there was nothing we could do except…

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• I’m angry today

  January 13, 2011

  Sometimes I think its my husband that pisses me off, others its just others. Today I think I'm just going to blame it on my frustration. I'm frustrated with Sam, I'm frustrated with my own husband, and I'm pissed that the grocery store can't f'ing keep cumin in stock, let alone have it in a…

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• Sam

  January 11, 2011

  Ok, so one thing I have noticed that I do as part of my mood disorder is probably being in love with the idea of love. I feel I am addicted to infatuations. Sam is my current addiction. I don't know where to begin with him or explanation of him. I am married, but not…

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• I hate titles.. mood lift..

  January 10, 2011

  So today I am feeling far far better than I did after reading the book in the previous entry. Still realizing my own flaws but at least I'm a bit more coming to terms with them. We got snow. Like more th an 24 hours of straight snowing snow. I think its really pretty really…

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• Triggered by a book

  January 6, 2011

  I posted this in my social group tarvalon.net, I felt the post was insightful enough I needed to add it here before it fell into oblivion of a forum thread and was lost forever. Unbearable Lightness by Ajailyn Morrivinna » Fri Jan 07, 2011 11:46 am Warning: Topic might cause those with emotional ...

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• A new friend

  May 9, 2010

  One door closes another opens they always say! So while I had some pissy moods for a few days over the whole issue with my friend in the last entry I have basically come away with it no worse for the wear and pretty not upset about it. Still don't quite get the fact that…

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• I have been informed:

  April 21, 2010

  That I apparently have a crush on someone. First of all I know he's gay, second I'm married, and I know I know you can still have a crush on someone who is gay when your married, but the point is. I don't, nor did I. Apparently at an event I went to where I…

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• Restless

  April 14, 2010

  Tax day. Pay your taxes. I'm feeling kind of restless. Unhappy with myself, unhappy with my situation in life.. I don't really know what to do about it. Hell I sometimes think I deserve all of it. Recently my family on my mom's side has told me they always thought I was just a bad…

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• Bah!

  April 12, 2010

  I'm slightly frustrated that my psych didn't want to change my medications. I've not been on them since spring started and have been enjoying my hypomania. But he wants me to go back on them and he upped my lexapro. Which is fine but hello I would like to crave things.. while I don't mind…

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