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Tired

May 11, 2025
I'm so tired. I'm physically tired all the time and don't know why. I've been sleeping pretty great. My heart has been acting wonky as hell again lately, and that makes me tired. More than physical exhaustion, I'm mentally and emotionally DRAINED. I'm spent. Worn out, worn down. I don't know why,...
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