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Puzzle Master

May 22, 2018
I just went hunting through the skeletons of my old entries, and found this little gem from my 18th birthday.  I'm 32 now. I looked in the mirror and saw eighteen years of totally incoherent emotion and irrational decisions. It’s one of those odd situations where I recognize all the pieces but I ...
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  • Emotional
    May 17, 2007
    I spent all high school with no social life because I was taking care of a sick father. He died a month before I started college. Then my mother decided to move, and I lost everything that was home. This town has been more of a home to me than anything I have ever known.…
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  • Disappearing
    March 25, 2007
    Molecules. Cells. Microbes. That's all I really am. Take away the binding and it wouldn't be that hard to catch a drift of air and sail away. So what is the binding? What ingredient ties my cells together and makes them jump in the rhythm of my heart beat? Is it God? Is it Moxie?…
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  • Smiling
    February 13, 2007
    I want to be able to smile the same way I used to cry. I remember being younger and crying for hours. I remember praying, hoping, hurting, loving, wanting, and being desperate. I remember dreaming. I remember taking walks at midnight with my dog and talking to him about the way the moon looked ov...
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  • Answers of Sort
    January 2, 2007
    I would never get over it. I would act as I always have. Shock can't describe it. I would invite you in. I would let you keep whatever you stole from me. Who could hurt you? I would hold you. I would tear in half. I would be there every moment that I could. What do…
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  • Catalogue of Names
    January 2, 2007
    "I should write more." I say that at least three times a year.  This isn't a New Year's resolution.  It can't be or it won't come true. So why did I start this journal? To vent? To wear my emotions on my sleeve?  No, I chose this place to fabricate a romance with a g...
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  • Turkey Trot
    June 15, 2006
    I started my morning about two hours earlier than usual. I stepped out onto the porch before I did anything, even before breakfast, which was unusual for me. The trees seemed to whisper with a calm energy, and I stretched, still bra-less and in my p.j.'s, and let the breeze wake up my skin. I&hel...
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  • If you leave a note about this entry…
    June 12, 2006
    1. I'll respond with something random about you. 2. I'll challenge you to try something. 3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you. 4. I'll tell you something I like about you. 5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you. 6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of. 7. I'll…
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  • Oh My…
    June 8, 2006
    Okay. It's summer. I have no friends in Maine. I'm bored, and I needed a way to get this thing going again. If you think this is lame, don't read it :-p Insanity Survey Have you ever taken goggles into the shower with you? Haha yes, at camp Have you ever stared at the blobs…
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  • Resurrection
    February 18, 2006
    A flood has robbed me of much of my writing and many of my memories, so I have come back to my journal to see which poems and musings still survive. I return here not so much because I believe that what I have to say is important, but because writing gives me roots. Looking…
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