Recent Entries

• Night night all.

  April 1, 2023

  So I'm trying to fight me being tired and my brain being exhausted from overthinking. So I think it's time to take it down and try again tomorrow.. I pray it will be a better day for me tomorrow, I need to get my focus back and I need to focus on healing so that…

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• Raining here…

  April 1, 2023

  Hmm I can't help but wonder if rain brings sadness? Or maybe I just have so many memories of being with my best friend on rainy days having a movie day and I realize in the rainy day moment that it will never happen again. Wow... Or maybe for me its symbolic to 5 years…

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• Therapy

  April 1, 2023

  Random thought... Talked to my therapist today and truly just feel like man! I've really lost myself and I have no idea as to what I'm doing anymore! I miss being happy. I realize that I need to love myself and I pray to get there again one day. Moving on from someone you still…

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• Feeling alone

  April 1, 2023

  I feel alone, don't really have friends, I don't have family and the one person that was a real friend I hurt them so here I am alone. Will I really just end up alone for the way that I treat the people closest to me? Why? I'm just really dislike myself and I'm disappointed…

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• So many neg. thoughts…

  April 1, 2023

  The amount of negative thoughts in my head are deafening, piercing to say the least... I suck at relationships and I'm tired of that fact. Starting to hate getting invested in someone else and vice versa and I do something to fuck it all up! Am I meant to be alone so that I can't…

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• Questions and Concerns…

  April 1, 2023

  Today I realized that God could possibly be punishing me for that abortion I had, I'm mad with myself bc I feel alone as I did when I got it. At the time I just started my new job and got pregnant carelessly and was scared. I truly didn't get a chance to be happy…

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